Very blessed to be plagued by the lack of achieving my very important goal in life
yizzle
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Game developer, artist, and computer science student. On a medical leave and hiatus since Feb 2026.
Welcome to my public notes app featuring thoughts on my chronic illness and the yearning for creative fulfillment
Page is dark and yellow tinted due to migraines.
Background art: Elysium by Awetos
Guts from Berserk walking into the light, in reference to Maximus' death in Gladiator as he imagines passing through Elysium and reuniting with his wife and child.
Statuses
When you dislike a person, every little thing they do bothers you. Does that mean the root of perfectionism is you dont like yourself?
Stayed the night at a shelter. 2/10 do not recommend unless you like souls like games.
The prize for meeting others expectations is Lou Gehrigs' disease. (Currently reading when the body says no)
A child's purpose is to be exactly the opposite of what their parents wanted.
Why must the artist only come out when im depressed?
Suffering is the school for humor.
Me to brain: who's paying you to be this depressed? Are you getting paid for spinning everything in such a negative light?
day 1 of actually developing with tailwind... :(
FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE. CRYING AND BEGGING FOR A CRUMB OF CSS. TAILWIND, WHAT BOWELS OF HELL DID YOU COME FROM?!
WHAT THE FUCK THIS UDEMY COURSE IS SOLVING PROBLEMS IVE BEEN GOOGLING ALL YEAR. The real gacha is Udemy
How old were you when you found out rich people pretend to be poor?
My brain when I am drawing: I cant believe im so talented im so fucking good My brain all other times: my life is going nowhere im a loser
Can't believe I lied and said I could do it bc I wanted the money and then ended up being capable anyway out of not wanting to give up
*laughs maniacally* ugly wins again!!! (Seeing multiple videos on how ugly websites are better for UX)
Why the fuck am I watching videos on webdesign this is unemployed behavior.
If at first it don't turn out right, you just draw it again. Eventually you'll get there.
Doll girls scare me because you know they have standards.
Me: omg how did this turn out so good?! Also me: because I'm a master artist. (In my comfort zone)
help! I've become a real developer ! When did this happen?!