forced to be seen a certain way because people cant see past my body and realize anything im communicating. but i also do nothing to stop it

What does it mean to be seen? To be cared for? To trust and believe someone understands the same comfort you derive from their presence?

it's sad(?) that people aren't familiar with being the target of personal kindness and care to the end that I become a focal point to them

I want closure... but I can't stand to tear open those wounds again

new phone goofin but the wifi chip in the old one burned (guy said it couldve burned a hole in my pocket) so transferring data with a cable

my phone is broken this is ruining my bimbocore y2k vibes (please be okay enough to let me uber to the phone store tomorrow)

taking anticipatory resoluteness to its extreme and refusing to promise anything anymore because you've become so unpredictable

i cant keep doing this... ruining everything for everyone and being miserable... but i cant make a change... so what if i just isolate...

We argued about shapes and lines and sides in the office life is good

imposter syndrome but no one with relevant criteria can snap me out of it

my neck hurts + I'm exhausted + I'm disgusting + I'm ugly + I'm stupid + I don't care about anything ((:

is this what community and belonging and fun feels like <3

isolating and lonely but the thought of comfort and being with others feels like i light i dont want to work to reach

wow that feels real... a complete lack of drive and want for anything, feeling the distance and not wanting to close it... its so over...

why am i ugly + is that what it feels like to care and miss and yearn

fomo about the future for preferences you can't change nor force

making rational choices in response to my persistent irrational choices and going insane

This life of mine is so full of waste I can't stop thinking about how to counteract that

there was a Nintendo direct? saw mario stuff on sale... got itchy and went "oo I'm itchy I'm itchy".... stonepa come back :((

feeling repulsed by this (my) body/consciousness combo