we know it's bad when i'm not using my journal and im on here

someone's dog won't stfu i hope it's for no reason but please I want to sleep

I miss doing phenomenology (i dont know if sartre + beauvoir count for me (in vibes) i want merleau-ponty) reading my prof's stuff yearning

try so hard to think people love you and will bring you with them but really youll be moved beyond and left behind. i can do this myself...

why is doing everything so hard? do it scared do it angry do it exhausted do it feeling like a stupid burdensome asshole

I love being proven right

I'm just dead weight being dragged through life by everyone else

"what? like it's hard?" i mutter to myself before mimicking smashing my head into the desk (this shit is not easy)

I wish you could throw things that felt satisfying to throw

"this is good for me" I mutter over and over

shoes that dont cut my ankles

imagine having friends that you love and they love you and you get to have a co job and work with them and youre successful and legendary :(

getting delusional that I'll be someone some day

when u feel weird so u open ur camera and start making faces to make sure it isnt a stroke #imnormal

The feminine urge to have a mental breakdown so my office neighbor will hear me through the wall and save me

I eat my mac and cheese al dente bitch

a cigarette rn....

me 🤝 making dnd characters with names no one can pronounce

Second day of the semester and I am already about to haha

bashing my skull in because I wish I could be anyone but me but I cannot make the choices that would change me for the better