i just wanna be hot i wanna have cute pictures...

like a pms fueled cry sesh that manifests as throwing a tantrum about games and bed time... very sexy and 23 years old of you

I can't even be mentally ill in a way that's alluring (in a worth saving way) :(

Feminine urge to spike my fucking phone into the ground because there's nothing I can do to fix anything

this black cherry tea smells so good im going to cry life is so worth living

maybe i want cute pictures of me sometimes i always try to take them for others :(

patting my pockets like 'phone, wallet, keys, cigarettes'

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK ITS ALL RAGE I CANT EVEN BE UPSET

second to last application... realize the word i'm looking for is trivial...

save me flat affect save meeee i love flat affect actually

becoming insanely comfortable when someone is assigned to be my rock so i keep throwing stuff at them about stuff beyond that scope <3

beginning to run into walls because it's not entirely cute being a 23 year old who has a childlike naivete toward being a functional human

So happy. Feeling silly, feeling like myself... not scared, trusting people like me for me

I wish I didn't feel so disgusting and incapable (separate concerns)

getting insanely emotional over the thought of going to a school 2 of my professors went to...

im so ill i cant eat

should i explode? I waste all my time anyway...

complain enough and it shall change

was gonna go out... it starts storming... crying in my bed instead

get insanely obsessed with creating a phenomenology of dying like some doomed explorer trying to find comfort through the fountain of youth