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medeuxsa πŸ’€ 2 days ago

having a body is so hard... too much work... I need out of it

medeuxsa πŸ‘½ 4 days ago

yeah im actually a fraud and I hate this shit. Everything I've said i am and intended to be is gone

medeuxsa πŸ’€ 7 days ago

I feel like the most vicious person, i cannot have the εΎ· to warrant this

medeuxsa πŸ™ƒ 10 days ago

Using someone catching feelings really quickly as reassurance im not disgusting or grotesque

medeuxsa πŸ’€ 13 days ago

I wish I didnt feel selfish and guilty and feel happy and free to share my successes, but praise for every little thing isnt good to ask...

medeuxsa 🌧️ 15 days ago

is this how it feels? if only id learn...

medeuxsa 🌧️ 18 days ago

when youre a liar so you just project your own distrust onto everyone else... but what else is there to do? faking care feels more humane

medeuxsa πŸ€’ 19 days ago

I wish I had the strength to give up

medeuxsa πŸ€’ 20 days ago

convincing yourself youre worthless so you never have an embarrassing big ego moment ever again

medeuxsa πŸ’€ 20 days ago

why does everyone else get to use me for happiness and im stuck as a fucking husk. Even if I prioritize myself, nothing will change Im stuck

medeuxsa 🌧️ 20 days ago

What an absolute fucking nightmare. It's this for the rest of my life?? I'd be better off getting out of here asap

medeuxsa πŸ™‚ 23 days ago

Living like i could die every second but minimizing my impact instead of maximizing it

medeuxsa πŸ’€ 25 days ago

being edgy and suicidal but erasing the vent post because it dismisses how you value others #virtuefriends #community

medeuxsa 😭 25 days ago

it's so evil that eating makes me bloated

medeuxsa πŸ«– 29 days ago

feeling #confucian. emulating my friends (who are at least as good as me) to become more virtuous

medeuxsa πŸ‘½ 31 days ago

Is that actually just that I take everything for granted and am in such a haze I forget temporality

medeuxsa πŸ™‚ 31 days ago

Why is it that I respond better to loss and negativity than encouragement and kind hearted gestures

medeuxsa πŸ’” 32 days ago

Im so scared I have nothing again and I've proven myself right. This is so soulless and pathetic I need to be put down itd be a net positive

medeuxsa 😭 40 days ago

Missing my sage #confuciusposting #realyearnerhours

medeuxsa 🌧️ 67 days ago

i miss knowing how to have fun... or having the people to have fun with...

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