feeling #confucian. emulating my friends (who are at least as good as me) to become more virtuous

Is that actually just that I take everything for granted and am in such a haze I forget temporality

Why is it that I respond better to loss and negativity than encouragement and kind hearted gestures

Im so scared I have nothing again and I've proven myself right. This is so soulless and pathetic I need to be put down itd be a net positive

Missing my sage #confuciusposting #realyearnerhours

i miss knowing how to have fun... or having the people to have fun with...

everything feels like wet tissue paper, fragile, unfixable, worthless

yeah man im just a ghost looking through fogged glass at my old life

I dont want things enough to feel I deserve them. I feel I dont work hard to enough to sustain them. Wish god put a different soul in me

Its 2am why am I comparing the (environmental) moral weight between being vegetarian and vegan holy bro go to bed

Do my friends know I redid my phone layout so it cycles through pictures of them and the backgrounds are us at the club (i love them)

i wish i had any kind of transferable skill or anything that could get me adjacent to where i want so i could luck into it

Drunk af but being philosophically accurate

Drunk at the function speaking classical chinese

Its a fiber art summer for me

how about instead of being a bitter brat we accept and feel gratitude toward the kindness people who care about us are willing to show us

someone should write a poem about me :3 I don't care if its love or lust or hate i need to be recognized by another in a poetic way

mmmm new playlists, a surprise and a request <3

I hope they find someone who cares one day. If they really think this is care, I take my place joining everyone who forged this attitude.

im tired of needing to commit myself to everyone else... there is no me that they so desperately hang onto and want to stay with...