"I wish I was good at philosophy" ur doing ur phd in it imposter syndrome ass "everyone else is better" youre just silly and balanced...

Actually nothing feels meaningful

if all these little moments are what kills me, I wont have regrets <3

I'm surrounded by light but I feel like a black hole

we know it's bad when i'm not using my journal and im on here

someone's dog won't stfu i hope it's for no reason but please I want to sleep

I miss doing phenomenology (i dont know if sartre + beauvoir count for me (in vibes) i want merleau-ponty) reading my prof's stuff yearning

try so hard to think people love you and will bring you with them but really youll be moved beyond and left behind. i can do this myself...

why is doing everything so hard? do it scared do it angry do it exhausted do it feeling like a stupid burdensome asshole

I love being proven right

I'm just dead weight being dragged through life by everyone else

"what? like it's hard?" i mutter to myself before mimicking smashing my head into the desk (this shit is not easy)

I wish you could throw things that felt satisfying to throw

"this is good for me" I mutter over and over

shoes that dont cut my ankles

imagine having friends that you love and they love you and you get to have a co job and work with them and youre successful and legendary :(

getting delusional that I'll be someone some day

when u feel weird so u open ur camera and start making faces to make sure it isnt a stroke #imnormal

The feminine urge to have a mental breakdown so my office neighbor will hear me through the wall and save me

I eat my mac and cheese al dente bitch