I dont want things enough to feel I deserve them. I feel I dont work hard to enough to sustain them. Wish god put a different soul in me

Its 2am why am I comparing the (environmental) moral weight between being vegetarian and vegan holy bro go to bed

Do my friends know I redid my phone layout so it cycles through pictures of them and the backgrounds are us at the club (i love them)

i wish i had any kind of transferable skill or anything that could get me adjacent to where i want so i could luck into it

Drunk af but being philosophically accurate

Drunk at the function speaking classical chinese

Its a fiber art summer for me

how about instead of being a bitter brat we accept and feel gratitude toward the kindness people who care about us are willing to show us

someone should write a poem about me :3 I don't care if its love or lust or hate i need to be recognized by another in a poetic way

mmmm new playlists, a surprise and a request <3

I hope they find someone who cares one day. If they really think this is care, I take my place joining everyone who forged this attitude.

im tired of needing to commit myself to everyone else... there is no me that they so desperately hang onto and want to stay with...

I've committed to prioritizing the wrong tasks this summer in the name of useless, short-sighted "productivity" and dreams of being better

im lost again

sleep schedule getting bad, refusing to do work... but at least i watch stuff on 1.5x instead of 2x still...

everything is so fucking miserable when you're a loser with no one to leech off of

I harbor so much hate it's hard to not imagine that reflected on others

I miss my sparkle (excitement, curiosity and creativity)

im not a charismatic personality, im not first in the game, im not anything special.. i will never get what i want and will hate it if i do

its so over... how can someone be so stunted so flawed so dry so awful so boring... (it's me)