ohhh everyone loves me and thinks me reliable too much ohhh they keep giving me career-building opportunities ohhhh

call me shadowheart the way im god's favorite princess

they should make food that isnt scary

cohort friend just said my slides helped him figure out an almost year-long puzzle he's been working with #amigoated

getting hangxiety but you were totally sober... oh wow insufferable am i

hey so maybe everything is alright and im the luckiest girl in the world who's kinda sick w it

i am full of gratefulness and light and these things all help me learn and feel

"I wish I was good at philosophy" ur doing ur phd in it imposter syndrome ass "everyone else is better" youre just silly and balanced...

Actually nothing feels meaningful

if all these little moments are what kills me, I wont have regrets <3

I'm surrounded by light but I feel like a black hole

we know it's bad when i'm not using my journal and im on here

someone's dog won't stfu i hope it's for no reason but please I want to sleep

I miss doing phenomenology (i dont know if sartre + beauvoir count for me (in vibes) i want merleau-ponty) reading my prof's stuff yearning

try so hard to think people love you and will bring you with them but really youll be moved beyond and left behind. i can do this myself...

why is doing everything so hard? do it scared do it angry do it exhausted do it feeling like a stupid burdensome asshole

I love being proven right

I'm just dead weight being dragged through life by everyone else

"what? like it's hard?" i mutter to myself before mimicking smashing my head into the desk (this shit is not easy)

I wish you could throw things that felt satisfying to throw