the joys of having a nickname given to you by your professors. they talk about u and ur friends and now u all share smth <3
medeuxsa
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can i be the brightest flame that burns out the quickest?
the minute i have the time and space and energy to change my discord profile... the day all is right in the world...
heartbroken? distraught? that the world isn't fair to them? what is up with me i am attached and i cant make it better but i want to </3
how can it be im so undeveloped and vicious and toxic
dude dude dude its happening im having a capstone meeting scheduled im gonna finish im gonna graduate im gonna go to a phd duuuuuude
why do I feel so guilty for asking things
things work out and im actually good at what i do and I notice novel things and can fight for and express them :)
try not to crash out challenge failed
I've forgotten what it's like to be loved by people... to have them show you yourself through their eyes... that was nice
time change nice, I love daylight... time change evil, I'm so sleepy...
not my fault that my capstone hasn't moved yippeeeee
oh yeah yeah just cried in the department head's office (he started talking about how what I'm feeling is bc I have to start moving on)
local bitch guilty bc doesnt know how to say no but also doesnt know when to say no (am i in my own way or should i try)
staring at my phd acceptance letter like it'll go away at any minute
the snow that's icy and crunchy and feels like it kinda sticks to your shoes to the ground.... mmm
Once again pissed people can't see inside my head and I can't make my thoughts intelligible enough
got another rejection <3 time for the self-loathing to kick in
This waking up early shit and having plans is crazy what do you mean I've fucked off for four hours and it's only noon
this shit's fire (but the fire is a dumpster fire)