becoming bitter and unkind... I must sleep

someone said my capstone was the best theyve seen in 3 years i stay winning and a bunch of people said unprompted how good it was to him too

the joys of having a nickname given to you by your professors. they talk about u and ur friends and now u all share smth <3

can i be the brightest flame that burns out the quickest?

the minute i have the time and space and energy to change my discord profile... the day all is right in the world...

heartbroken? distraught? that the world isn't fair to them? what is up with me i am attached and i cant make it better but i want to </3

how can it be im so undeveloped and vicious and toxic

dude dude dude its happening im having a capstone meeting scheduled im gonna finish im gonna graduate im gonna go to a phd duuuuuude

why do I feel so guilty for asking things

things work out and im actually good at what i do and I notice novel things and can fight for and express them :)

try not to crash out challenge failed

I've forgotten what it's like to be loved by people... to have them show you yourself through their eyes... that was nice

time change nice, I love daylight... time change evil, I'm so sleepy...

not my fault that my capstone hasn't moved yippeeeee

oh yeah yeah just cried in the department head's office (he started talking about how what I'm feeling is bc I have to start moving on)

local bitch guilty bc doesnt know how to say no but also doesnt know when to say no (am i in my own way or should i try)

staring at my phd acceptance letter like it'll go away at any minute

the snow that's icy and crunchy and feels like it kinda sticks to your shoes to the ground.... mmm

Once again pissed people can't see inside my head and I can't make my thoughts intelligible enough

got another rejection <3 time for the self-loathing to kick in