Somebody better figure out if asking Saint Anthony to help u find smth is placebo bc I might have to start believing

I'm a "are u gonna eat that pickle?" girl and he's a "no you can have it" boy and I love him but life took us apart :(

I wish there was anything stable that I cared about. Like... no one would be able to pin down anything about me and be accurate.

Why does having a lazy day make me feel disgusting and not refreshed

I wish my life was more [productive, ideal/oriented toward art and creating, virtue, friends]. I need to change but life gets in the way too

I wish I could do anything worthwhile or meaningful

things looks better and yet I remain stuck in a loop, hollow

man... what is happening to me...

(being insanely dramatic but the hole in my chest grows) when does the survivor guilt end?

I really am asleep in my own body for much of the day, huh?

Im geeking bro why is being vulnerable so hard what if people think im mean or stupid

having a body is so hard... too much work... I need out of it

yeah im actually a fraud and I hate this shit. Everything I've said i am and intended to be is gone

I feel like the most vicious person, i cannot have the 德 to warrant this

Using someone catching feelings really quickly as reassurance im not disgusting or grotesque

I wish I didnt feel selfish and guilty and feel happy and free to share my successes, but praise for every little thing isnt good to ask...

is this how it feels? if only id learn...

when youre a liar so you just project your own distrust onto everyone else... but what else is there to do? faking care feels more humane

I wish I had the strength to give up

convincing yourself youre worthless so you never have an embarrassing big ego moment ever again