Living like i could die every second but minimizing my impact instead of maximizing it

being edgy and suicidal but erasing the vent post because it dismisses how you value others #virtuefriends #community

it's so evil that eating makes me bloated

feeling #confucian. emulating my friends (who are at least as good as me) to become more virtuous

Is that actually just that I take everything for granted and am in such a haze I forget temporality

Why is it that I respond better to loss and negativity than encouragement and kind hearted gestures

Im so scared I have nothing again and I've proven myself right. This is so soulless and pathetic I need to be put down itd be a net positive

Missing my sage #confuciusposting #realyearnerhours

i miss knowing how to have fun... or having the people to have fun with...

everything feels like wet tissue paper, fragile, unfixable, worthless

yeah man im just a ghost looking through fogged glass at my old life

I dont want things enough to feel I deserve them. I feel I dont work hard to enough to sustain them. Wish god put a different soul in me

Its 2am why am I comparing the (environmental) moral weight between being vegetarian and vegan holy bro go to bed

Do my friends know I redid my phone layout so it cycles through pictures of them and the backgrounds are us at the club (i love them)

i wish i had any kind of transferable skill or anything that could get me adjacent to where i want so i could luck into it

Drunk af but being philosophically accurate

Drunk at the function speaking classical chinese

Its a fiber art summer for me

how about instead of being a bitter brat we accept and feel gratitude toward the kindness people who care about us are willing to show us

someone should write a poem about me :3 I don't care if its love or lust or hate i need to be recognized by another in a poetic way