im tired of needing to commit myself to everyone else... there is no me that they so desperately hang onto and want to stay with...

I've committed to prioritizing the wrong tasks this summer in the name of useless, short-sighted "productivity" and dreams of being better

im lost again

sleep schedule getting bad, refusing to do work... but at least i watch stuff on 1.5x instead of 2x still...

everything is so fucking miserable when you're a loser with no one to leech off of

I harbor so much hate it's hard to not imagine that reflected on others

I miss my sparkle (excitement, curiosity and creativity)

im not a charismatic personality, im not first in the game, im not anything special.. i will never get what i want and will hate it if i do

its so over... how can someone be so stunted so flawed so dry so awful so boring... (it's me)

ah my agency and autonomy leaving my body as I flee my responsibility because I dont know how to ask for help :)

becoming bitter and unkind... I must sleep

someone said my capstone was the best theyve seen in 3 years i stay winning and a bunch of people said unprompted how good it was to him too

the joys of having a nickname given to you by your professors. they talk about u and ur friends and now u all share smth <3

can i be the brightest flame that burns out the quickest?

the minute i have the time and space and energy to change my discord profile... the day all is right in the world...

heartbroken? distraught? that the world isn't fair to them? what is up with me i am attached and i cant make it better but i want to </3

how can it be im so undeveloped and vicious and toxic

dude dude dude its happening im having a capstone meeting scheduled im gonna finish im gonna graduate im gonna go to a phd duuuuuude

why do I feel so guilty for asking things

things work out and im actually good at what i do and I notice novel things and can fight for and express them :)