finished another journal and im going off benzos starting today, wish me luck

a friend was just a stranger not long ago

we might be a little back

walked around a bit (life is literally open world??) & had dinner with some new people i met,, old me would be so proud, still feels surreal

feeling good these past days but i need to WORK in a fr fr way

sharing experiences and hardships in a community group feels like a big hug

havent had a breakdown in like 1 month! congrats me! congrats medication that is just a temporary patch and fixes 0 problems!

missing my nier era, still havent 100% the games

i hope daniel naroditsky is finally at peace, i rly liked him and im gonna miss him. this feels like reckful again, it makes me so sad

exhausted this past few days, but i might be getting back onto a more hopeful mood

i just went ALONE to a book club full of NEW people and it went WELL! if *I* can take a step like this so can YOU, we gotta do it, do or die

our perception of time is so fucky and weird, it leaves me so unsettled

lmao damn i think the sole fact that interacting with my mother exhausts and disturbs me THIS MUCH should be all the evidence i need

listening to early 2010s nightcore all day to fight the dystopic feeling that is coding machine learning assignments in 2025

AI YAZAWA IF YOU HURT MY GURL HACHI ONE MORE TIME I SWEAR TO GOD

i dont feel like doing ANYTHING T-T not even doing nothing is appealing ts so distressing

currently in my second melancholic/depressive episode of the day

been so busy with projects and deadlines,,, but overall ive been feeling good and pretty stable

me watching the numbers go down from 11am to 7am as i set my alarm clock for tomorrow T-T

Trying once again to accept that it is the weakness of my flesh that makes me human and who I am