Being awake just feels empty when your head is full of wonder but your body won’t make it real. Tired of trying, just want to do.

I need to get it together.

Feeling under-stimulated so I impulse bought a new game (Crow Country) instead of doing the 10 billion other stuff I should be doing. Whelp.

While I think my mood is improving, the ability to do things has not. Just a jar full of bees, waiting to be free.

Dressed like pre-teen bully in a 80s movie (hockey jersey, baggy jeans, & mullet)

Oof, I don’t like this empty feeling.

Currently wrapped in my blanket. I know I eventually have to venture outside. (Its chilly but I hunger and we need toilet paper)

Appt Recap: probably just have Subclinical OCD. Zoloft upped to 200mg. 4 months of anxiety cbt before accessing ADHD (i miss vyvanse)

Sleepyhead. I tell myself this lie: There is no point in seeing the sun. So I shut my eyes. The curtains drawn close.

It was a "can't get out of bed" day.

Watched 3 movies today: The Substance (in theaters), then Look Back and Hundreds of Beavers (at home). 3 very different vibes, all great!

How do I proceed when life itself is overwhelming?

Currently trying out ReadyMag for my portfolio site. Let's see how this goes.

Being a Black Queer Femme online thinking "BFFR?!" over & over. Ppl blaming each other, in-denial of the horrifying truth about The US.

5 more days till my OCD assessment and the chance to be back on vyvanse.

God, please let me work on my fucking portfolio site so I can get a paycheck again. I want to focus on more important things (ex: community)

If I’m nothing but tired…

Some days I wake up and all I think and feel is “I don’t have much in me anymore.” Then the sun rises and sets without me moving. Shame.

I slept too much today cause I felt sick after going out without a jacket the day before.

I miss having an income and designing full time.