Back in NY since my mom had hip surgery. Shes doing pretty good. Just extra sleepy.

Procrastinated too hard and had my therapy appointment cancelled cause I didn't fill out my scales.

Been rotting in bed for a week sleeping and playing sdv instead of doing ANYTHING ELSE.

my brain has been buzzing but no action is being made

Uh oh! Cant get out of bed again.

Been back in NY for the past few days being a bum on my mom’s tiny couch.

Making cranberry scones & playing SDV. I need a nap, but I also need to finish these job apps I've been putting off. Alotta of nothing.

Silently crying while eating homemade cranberry apple sauce and drinking black drip coffee.

Trying to explain to my straight friend that Ripley from the Alien franchise so hot and only gets hotter.

my lack of ability to focus, to motivate myself is ruining everything.

I went outside today! (yay for cat food, french fries, and seeing the sun!)

Being awake just feels empty when your head is full of wonder but your body won’t make it real. Tired of trying, just want to do.

I need to get it together.

Feeling under-stimulated so I impulse bought a new game (Crow Country) instead of doing the 10 billion other stuff I should be doing. Whelp.

While I think my mood is improving, the ability to do things has not. Just a jar full of bees, waiting to be free.

Dressed like pre-teen bully in a 80s movie (hockey jersey, baggy jeans, & mullet)

Oof, I don’t like this empty feeling.

Currently wrapped in my blanket. I know I eventually have to venture outside. (Its chilly but I hunger and we need toilet paper)

Appt Recap: probably just have Subclinical OCD. Zoloft upped to 200mg. 4 months of anxiety cbt before accessing ADHD (i miss vyvanse)

Sleepyhead. I tell myself this lie: There is no point in seeing the sun. So I shut my eyes. The curtains drawn close.