always floating in this hell between assurance and resignation

I dont know if ill ever get married but if I get to do a photoshoot i want my fit to be based off the roach dress from Hairspary (1988)

the minor downside of smoking weed is that I can feel all the physical aches & pains that sober me somehow dulls

Shoutout to the hotel guest that works at adobe that let me use his discount so I can save $660 a yr on my creative cloud. Angels r real!

Got a new tv through points from work (aka company dollars) and trying to set it up has been fucking hell. Its more spyware than tv >:(

I need a real freak job so i can have a skullet.

im like 75% sure ive had an ovarian cyst burst with the way ive been feeling

finally updated this page to match my smol.pub. next up: custom graphics & redoing my neocities. life is alright

Went to my second sticker event last night and I'm pretty inspired! Also it marks a month being back on ADHD meds!

the combo of being underemployed & having no life because i'm always at work is a real bummer. Like damn at least pay me a livable wage.

the combo of being underemployed & having no life because i'm always at work is a real bummer. Like damn at least pay me a livable wage.

had a tough conversation with my partner yesterday. I felt bad that it came up a day before their bday.

hoping my favorite jeans style from this brand don't sell out before I get paid next week. it's on clearance & I really want a back up pair

3 days back on a stimulant ADHD med after being abruptly taken off when I moved out of NY. I have hope in myself again.

Spent the night in the ER only to be told nothing is wrong but hey at least I get to skip work, play the Field of Mistria update, & sleep!

Fun! I cant sleep! 🫩

Bit the bullet and got a refurbish phone off of ebay. My old phone’s screen decided to die once I got the new one in my hands.

i wouldn't say my days off were wasted but i don't feel great about it ending

Whenever I notice my sleeping & spending habits getting really out of whack, I can't help but worry Im getting hypomanic

Stupidly impulsed bought a shitload of crap off of ebay as if I was still getting paid as well as I was in 2023!