THE ONLY WAY GOD CAN FORGIVE ME FOR THE SIN OF MY BIRTH IS FOR ME TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE IN HIS NAME

I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I NEED TO KILL MYSELF I NEED TO KILL MYSELF I NEED T

IF I ATE A BULLET BEFORE YOU WOULD MY BLOOD AND BRAINS BURN YOUR SKIN LIKE ACID? WOULD YOU SAVOR THE TASTE OF MY VAPORIZED FACE?

SPEAKING FUCKING NONSENSE TO ME TOTALLY DISCONNECTED FROM REALITY A STUBBORN DELUSIONAL IDIOT I WANT TO BLOW OUT MY BRAINS IN FRONT OF HER

everyone i spoke to was confused by my words. am i saying the words i think i am saying? the words i hear? is my speech disorganized? hello?

punished for a fleeting few hours in which i felt euphoric, like i was part of the world. who was that using my body? separate, cold. 71734E

im closing off again for another day. building my walls, soon i will entombed. is this what i want?

wow i got to start my day with 4 embarrassing phone calls!!!!! kms!!!!!!!!

just turned 30 and still havent killed myself yet im such a useless coward wasting resources

want to lose 20% of your body weight fast? it's easy! just be horrifically abused and then hold your son as he dies of cancer!!! :)))))

coping w the fact that i lost 40lbs in less than a year after rocky died.... grieving really does ravage your body huh....

you can kick me around for standing up for myself but don't come crying to me cos your foot got burned when you stuck it in the fire

I washed up on a sea glass shore--I'm nobody's captive

disability hearing time. wish me luck.

i cant take it anymore

she told me she loved me and i said i loved her too.... i think i lied to her...

i want to kill myself

ive spent all day working on my hair and im so tempted to just shave my head to spite her

i am so fucking upset right now ive begged for help for cutting or for just checking but you dont fucking care about me enough for that

i dont even know how to process.... wdym my hair has looked fucked up for months?? and you couldn't be bothered to help or say shit?? FUCK U