i couldn't keep my baby alive so why do i deserve to live?

apparently my judge is 15% (that's CRAZY high) more likely to deny vs other judges nationwide. of COURSE this is the guy ive been stuck with

denied disability by the judge 2 weeks after my hearing. i am appealing but it feels like it's over. the world is closing in on me.

🦷🦷 i miss going to the dentist 🦷🦷 im too scared of leaving my house to get my teeth cleaned 🦷🦷 mental illness 🦷🦷

it's a race to the bottom measuring the brain cells of cis gay male terminally-online furries. to the gulags with all you dweebs

feeling the urge to count calories again. you have to fight it. you have to fight it! you know you need more than a toddler eats, not less!!

if i give my coordinates will someone come kill me please im out alone in downtown seattle

I AM SO DESPERATE TO DIE

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THE ONLY WAY GOD CAN FORGIVE ME FOR THE SIN OF MY BIRTH IS FOR ME TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE IN HIS NAME

I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I NEED TO KILL MYSELF I NEED TO KILL MYSELF I NEED T

IF I ATE A BULLET BEFORE YOU WOULD MY BLOOD AND BRAINS BURN YOUR SKIN LIKE ACID? WOULD YOU SAVOR THE TASTE OF MY VAPORIZED FACE?

SPEAKING FUCKING NONSENSE TO ME TOTALLY DISCONNECTED FROM REALITY A STUBBORN DELUSIONAL IDIOT I WANT TO BLOW OUT MY BRAINS IN FRONT OF HER

everyone i spoke to was confused by my words. am i saying the words i think i am saying? the words i hear? is my speech disorganized? hello?

punished for a fleeting few hours in which i felt euphoric, like i was part of the world. who was that using my body? separate, cold. 71734E

im closing off again for another day. building my walls, soon i will entombed. is this what i want?

wow i got to start my day with 4 embarrassing phone calls!!!!! kms!!!!!!!!

just turned 30 and still havent killed myself yet im such a useless coward wasting resources

want to lose 20% of your body weight fast? it's easy! just be horrifically abused and then hold your son as he dies of cancer!!! :)))))

coping w the fact that i lost 40lbs in less than a year after rocky died.... grieving really does ravage your body huh....