what's worse? your partner being annoyed when you cry or unfazed by it? maybe i'm too dramatic and stupid and that's why no one cares

no matter how much i beg and cry about my boundaries it doesn't make a damn difference

i want to cut off the hand she used to touch her. if she wants it so bad she can have it. my body does not belong to me. i want to die.

but it's not a grown man fingering an 8 year old me and it's not a boyfriend raping sleeping me so it's no biggie!!

ppl LOVE taking advantage of me when im asleep! my child molester touched me in my sleep. i woke to my ex raping me MANY times. now THIS???

i cant tell anyone what happened bcos they will just be like "well that's not REALLY sexual assault" and im a stupid whiny bitch baby

i know that i can't bring it up again cos ive done it a hundred times but im still upset im still betrayed im still hurt how do i move on???

im so fucking terrified that A) no one will consider what happened actually sexual assault and B) this will escalate to rape. i am worthless

also she mildly sexually assaulted me the other night so like literally my boundaries and feelings mean nothing

oh so when SHE has a boundary it's sacred i dont cross it but when I have a boundary it's just a suggestion that she gets to disregard

love how she pressured me really really hard to drink and then is fucking loud and rude and argumentative the next morning when im sick. kms

i want to be subjected to unimaginable pain. i want to feel so afraid, so small that i actually beg for my life. i want to be left for dead

inshallah her new therapist will tell her to dump my useless ass so i can finally just rot in the street until im raped and killed

i do her morning shit for her but she being a fucking bitch so she's on her own and forgot her meds. i know it makes me evil but im laughing

I HATE HER

i just wish my partner wasn't so mean to me......

i wish i could erase my existence from my mom's brain so i could kill myself without hurting her

but i'm too scared of what killing myself would do to my mom. she can't handle that right now after losing her dog...

if i killed myself everyone would inherit a tiny morsel of my pain and finally understand how much i am suffering and they would love me

i wish i wasn't too cowardly to kill myself. if i killed myself everyone would love me again and wish they were nicer. then i would matter.