it sucks i miss companionship i miss feeling attractive and loved i miss mattering to someone i miss love i just want to matter

she has drained my life and my muse from me. she keeps me from making art. i have to kill myself. if i cant draw it would be better to die.

pharmacy arbitrarily didnt give me my meds friday so ive gone three days without my meds and im in so much mental and physical pain

so sick of this shit im going to fucking kill myself i am just going to just fucking chlorine gas myself next time she leaves the house /gen

AINT NO WAY MY PARTNER WHO INTERRUPTS ME ALL THE TIME JUST STOPPED TALKING TO YELL AT ME NOT TO INTERRUPT HER WHEN I WAS SILENT KMSKMSKMSKMS

i made 4 dozen mary wanna chocochip cookies who wants to be friends with me? :-)

im gonna miss going by this name publicly :( sucks my dad has escalated his stalking into swatting and i just gotta dip

time to have some edibles and do dishes (suicidally)

covered up scars with a tattoo and now i got gnarly NEW scars ruining the tattoo... ay caramba...

everyone hates me

im sorry to disappoint everyone but i havent killed myself yet :( im really sorry :( i promise ill try harder next time :(

fuck it his name is bill 214-277-4400 he lives in sanger, tx first house west of nance family farms his bday is july 1st, 1965 lol

my racist groomer stalker father wont stop fucking harassing me and he even gave my address to one of my abusers and ive fucking had it

I HATE BEING SUCH A COWARD WHY CAN'T I KILL MYSELF I CAN'T GO ALL THE WAY IM A FUCKING PUSSY STOP MAKING EXCUSES AND DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!

i am trapped and there is no escape

no one cares about me

alone

i want to die

i will never be enough

sorry i havent killed myself yet