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clamo 🌙 106 days ago

I am burning under my skin, desperate but unable to tell everyone how I feel. My relationship makes me want to die. My friends are far away.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

I hate my body, my voice, and my brain. I will never be happy in this woman-shaped shell. I can only hope to destroy it so I can be free.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

No one sees me. No one hears me. No one treats me with respect. I don't deserve to claim to be transsexual. I will always be a woman.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

This woman-shaped shell I never asked for eclipses and conceals me so badly even my partner regularly misgenders me these days.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

There's always something else I am not trying hard enough at, and with each passing day I become weaker and more feeble-minded.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

I am stupid, embarrassing, worthless, empty, ugly, fat, boring, pathetic, dull, gross, useless and above all simply unloveable.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

Now I am stuck in this never-ending cycle of abuse, and there is nothing I can do to escape it. Each attempt is punished more than the last.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

The last time I felt truly loved was the last time my mother sang my lullaby to me when I was 5 years old. A quarter of a century ago.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

It doesn't matter, though. The problem is me. I am treated subhuman not because of the cruelty of others but because it is what I deserve.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

My father was a little kinder than my mother, M was a little kinder than my father, and N was a little kinder than M.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

I was so pliable, blinded by flattery and the short-lived kindness I received. I poured all my love and affection out for her.

clamo 🌙 106 days ago

I am a prisoner in my home. I was compelled out here in the wake of my son's death, despite my protests, to this roach-infested shithole.

clamo 🌙 130 days ago

At the end of the day, I have no choice but to die. I tried so desperately to get trained and work, but I keep failing, and I am broken.

clamo 🌙 130 days ago

This process has been humiliating and agonizing. Each person is more irritated with me than the last, and I get more frantic and desperate.

clamo 🌙 130 days ago

No one communicates with me, and then I am chastised for being ignored and for having to trust my own poor judgment. I need HELP!!!!

clamo 🌙 130 days ago

Years wait for repeated denials for disability and it feels like my lawyers don't even want me to win. Pass the buck and shut this bitch up.

clamo 🌙 130 days ago

I am told my wounds are self-inflicted. I beg for help, and I beg for guidance, but I am snubbed, rejected, and chastised for my weakness.

clamo 🌙 130 days ago

I cannot connect with the world around me. I am cognitively, emotionally, socially, and physically detached from everything around me.

clamo 🌙 130 days ago

I have been drowning and gasping for air for some time. I push and swim thru the current, but the waves crash into me harder each time.

clamo 🌙 132 days ago

i tried everything in my power to fight, to keep my chin up, but i could never learned to love myself. i fear i am simply a hollow vessel.

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