ulcers from stress from ulcers from stress from ulcers from stress

have literally spent all day just trying to keep myself from having a full blown panic attack

lost my disability case for good. five years down the drain. im still in shock. maybe suicide truly is the answer...

thinking about the romance of being found in the tub, a pallid figure in a red-wine bath, longitudinal wrist cuts and an empty pill bottle

disability denied again. 5 years in, appeals council didn't even look at my request. at what point do i give up and just kill myself?

how do i tell her being near her makes me sick?

she said she wants to be my muse but then she shuts down my attempted vulnerability and affection...how can i make art when i feel dejected?

don't show her music anymore don't talk about your own taste in music don't let anyone listen--you're a useless idiot and your taste is shit

0️⃣ days since my girlfriend last made me cry or feel rejected/embarrassed

basically i am a faggot

literally shitting all over mspec lesbians makes u a gold star conservative freak congratulations ur a bigoted queerphobic gay person lmao

ppl be like "DNI if ur" and then some heinous shit and then next they mention transmasc or mspec lesbo and im like ok then ur queerphobic!!

transmasc except not that i am a male but rather the male version of a woman (basically.... non-woman agender lesbian....)

transmasc but in a girly way, you feel?

i need to hire a lawyer to deal with my lawyer god i am so tired of this process

its wild when im so lucid that i fishhook and depersonalize again and see my self-injuries with compassion like seeing a friend struggling

being vaguely fragmented and SHing is darkly funny cos ppl will wonder if u were attacked or hurt urself and im like...its kinda both lmao

very hard to code my website on a 13yo 4th-hand macbook on its 3rd battery that randomly dies every 15 min and takes 15 more min to restart

stranger in my building overtly and dramatically sniffed my dirty laundry omw to the laundry room i am going to kms

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel / I focus on the pain, the only thing that’s real