its hard being a stupid fat transmasc nb with a smart beautiful transfem partner who is friends with when more beautiful smart trans women

like the WORST thing for my bpd is prob for her to leave the GC or stop talking to ppl who make me insecure cos it validates my paranoia

i have been very open w my partner about my silly brain and i appreciate that she has been kind without even considering leaving the GC

having bpd is so stupid i have so many silly thoughts that my partner will fall in love w someone in her GC but i have no basis for it ><

trying to be less bitchy and annoying

i hate my life

back on my antidepressants thanks to my counselor. very good thing but very bad side effects from restarting. i feel like a walking ulcer.

i cant believe im having to fight so hard just to get the meds that keep me alive. why only give me 2 days worth of meds for 2 weeks???

the world is a vampire

i had to answer the phone AND answer the door AND i have to leave the house today this is all so much more than my delicate mind can handle

begging for my meds i told nurse i was in withdrawal & sick & having brain zaps and he literally said "that's fine" see why im suicidal?!!!!

if gf mab pa-15 has a thousand fans i will be one. if gf mab pa-15 has one fan i am that fan. if gf mab pa-15 has no fans i am dead.

pooping with the door open to assert dominance

praying for those affected by the fires </3

fat pussy like santa

it's an insane person thing, you wouldn't get it

giving the worms in my brain a few more silly pills in exchange for not forcing me to kms as urgently (how does this not Disabled?)

but naw i was told to put that mentally ill suicidal shit away. shove it in the closet with that faggotry, that sjw bs, that artist shit...

if only you knew how my mother reacted when i told her i was suicidal when i was 10... you'd understand my desperate fight to stay visible..

"you are just begging for attention" y-yes? im scared of killing myself? why is a crazy/suicidal person expected to behave rationally????