back on my antidepressants thanks to my counselor. very good thing but very bad side effects from restarting. i feel like a walking ulcer.

i cant believe im having to fight so hard just to get the meds that keep me alive. why only give me 2 days worth of meds for 2 weeks???

the world is a vampire

i had to answer the phone AND answer the door AND i have to leave the house today this is all so much more than my delicate mind can handle

begging for my meds i told nurse i was in withdrawal & sick & having brain zaps and he literally said "that's fine" see why im suicidal?!!!!

if gf mab pa-15 has a thousand fans i will be one. if gf mab pa-15 has one fan i am that fan. if gf mab pa-15 has no fans i am dead.

pooping with the door open to assert dominance

praying for those affected by the fires </3

fat pussy like santa

it's an insane person thing, you wouldn't get it

giving the worms in my brain a few more silly pills in exchange for not forcing me to kms as urgently (how does this not Disabled?)

but naw i was told to put that mentally ill suicidal shit away. shove it in the closet with that faggotry, that sjw bs, that artist shit...

if only you knew how my mother reacted when i told her i was suicidal when i was 10... you'd understand my desperate fight to stay visible..

"you are just begging for attention" y-yes? im scared of killing myself? why is a crazy/suicidal person expected to behave rationally????

sorry again

feel like i should be posting an hourly apology on here for being visibly insane and pissing off everyone who sees my posts im so pathetic

the best part being off my meds (besides the literal OCD suicidal thoughts and being insufferable) are the brain & tongue zaps!!!!

just learned i've been off my meds that keep me from killing myself lol i hate insurance (yes it messes me up so fast i immediately forget)

if anyone tries to 5150 me i will bite, punch, kick, scratch, and spit on the officers who come to get me so they're forced to shoot me dead

if i lived in canada they would have let me done assisted suicide by now i totally qualify for it damn