giving the worms in my brain a few more silly pills in exchange for not forcing me to kms as urgently (how does this not Disabled?)

but naw i was told to put that mentally ill suicidal shit away. shove it in the closet with that faggotry, that sjw bs, that artist shit...

if only you knew how my mother reacted when i told her i was suicidal when i was 10... you'd understand my desperate fight to stay visible..

"you are just begging for attention" y-yes? im scared of killing myself? why is a crazy/suicidal person expected to behave rationally????

sorry again

feel like i should be posting an hourly apology on here for being visibly insane and pissing off everyone who sees my posts im so pathetic

the best part being off my meds (besides the literal OCD suicidal thoughts and being insufferable) are the brain & tongue zaps!!!!

just learned i've been off my meds that keep me from killing myself lol i hate insurance (yes it messes me up so fast i immediately forget)

if anyone tries to 5150 me i will bite, punch, kick, scratch, and spit on the officers who come to get me so they're forced to shoot me dead

if i lived in canada they would have let me done assisted suicide by now i totally qualify for it damn

sororicide fetish

i want to rend the flesh off my foes (i have no greater enemy than myself)

nobody loves me everybody hates me guess i'll go eat worms

i want to be subjected to unimaginable pain. i want to feel so afraid, so small that i actually beg for my life. i want to be left for dead

i wish i could erase my existence from my mom's brain so i could kill myself without hurting her

but i'm too scared of what killing myself would do to my mom. she can't handle that right now after losing her dog...

if i killed myself everyone would inherit a tiny morsel of my pain and finally understand how much i am suffering and they would love me

i wish i wasn't too cowardly to kill myself. if i killed myself everyone would love me again and wish they were nicer. then i would matter.

moving. dented the rental van really bad. family dog died today. pray for me please i am so dizzy with stress

alive, unfortunately