sororicide fetish

i want to rend the flesh off my foes (i have no greater enemy than myself)

nobody loves me everybody hates me guess i'll go eat worms

i want to be subjected to unimaginable pain. i want to feel so afraid, so small that i actually beg for my life. i want to be left for dead

i wish i could erase my existence from my mom's brain so i could kill myself without hurting her

but i'm too scared of what killing myself would do to my mom. she can't handle that right now after losing her dog...

if i killed myself everyone would inherit a tiny morsel of my pain and finally understand how much i am suffering and they would love me

i wish i wasn't too cowardly to kill myself. if i killed myself everyone would love me again and wish they were nicer. then i would matter.

moving. dented the rental van really bad. family dog died today. pray for me please i am so dizzy with stress

alive, unfortunately

been testing the waters not responding to friends or family for weeks. i think i'll be able to do this. no one will call 911 this time

no one will miss me when im gone. they will be sad when they hear what happened to me, but it will be like a papercut. then i will disappear

despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage

idk maybe i shouldn't kill myself... it's so hard when i have these moments of mild clarity...

once again with another lover the question: are they malicious or incompetent? those things affect me in the same way tho

there is no place for me in this world, in this home

i pray to god to be sent to hell so i may suffer eternal damnation to atone for the crime of my wretched existence

i've been slowly fading away tbh no one will know for weeks when i'm gone

i have nothing left but hatred for myself and im tired of lying to everyone i need to tell them i am going to die soon

die die die what are you waiting for this is your sign it's over there's no hope for you die die die