wasted my youth hating myself, hate myself for wasting my youth. one simple trick can solve all my woes, but do I have the bravery?

i cant believe i spent hours preparing myself to draw only to get derailed only a short while in. i want to die. i want to die right now

i should just fucking give up on art im too useless and stupid to do anything i'd be better as fertilizer than a living human wasting away

i got to draw for like 15 whole minutes before she got home and started listing the 5 hours of chores i have to get done

I WANT OTHERS TO FEEL MY PAIN. CAN YOU WITHSTAND IT? THE SORROW I AM CONSUMED BY? THE ANGER? THE FEAR? THE TRAUMA? IT WILL DESTROY YOU.

DENIED BY DISABILITY AFTER 4 YEARS. MY SON IS DEAD. CANT GET A JOB. WEAK AND HUNGRY. I HATE EVERYONE AROUND ME. OTHERS JOY MAKES ME SICK.

i want the whole world to watch me slit my wrists and become a bloated corpse

i have never in my 30 years been allowed to have any say or personhood i am always shackled to another person who i will come to despise

shut the fuck up annoying stupid ass bitch i am going to kill myself in front of you

annoying ass bitch

such a stubborn little piss baby

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at least being severely malnourished all the time from food insecurity means i am losing weight and therefore more acceptable to society

put me in a padded cell i am sick of faking personhood and i hate everyone around me

fucking idiot

there should be like a calculator tool but specifically so you can check your Rxs lethality for the perfect blend to reliably kill yourself

i am PRAYING she finally lets go and realizes that i am irredeemably useless trash and kicks me out so i can finally kill myself

i dont hate my partner im just unstable and i need to figure my shit out and be patient with her cos shes struggling too god life sucks

i am haunted by the sensation of holding my son's limp body in my arms. i felt my body tear in half by light and i was swallowed by darkness

i told him we would have one more beautiful summer together and he took his final breath the beginning of fall. i miss him so much