this is slowly just becoming my agoraphobia diary... every day i get a little worse...

back into bad habits. speaking too quietly, holding my head down, stiffening limbs, crying spells, hiding in the bathroom, skipping meals...

agoraphobia is getting worse

agoraphobia is getting bad again. narrowly avoided a complete breakdown before/after going to 7-11 just now

psych meds arent working anymore even tho they've kept it all at bay for years

im so SICK of correcting my boss misgendering me!!! she was so good the first couple months and now she's constantly calling me a girl

so many of the seattle metro drivers are so fucking evil... keep getting doors closed in my face...

sweetie aint no one throwing me under the bus im driving the damn thing

MY COWORKER NO-CALL-NO-SHOWED AND THEN CALLED TO TRY TO THROW ME UNDER THE BUS IM HOWLING

i miss my friends in texas so much. i feel so disconnected from them. i dont know what's going on in their lives anymore. theyre so far away

been cleanin and sewin patches and colorin my hair and workin on my sites~ in spite of everything trying to take care of myself uwu

regular customer came in today and asked for my name and when i told her my pronouns she said "wow! i never would have guessed!" i wanna kms

my close friend's cat passed away... all the cats ive ever loved or cared about are dead or unaccounted for.. (since my ex stole my other 2)

new counselor is nice :)

lol i hurt my foot and peeled the skin of my sole down to the pink but my small business ass boss is demanding i show up tomorrow

these pathetic cishet white women do not full realize that a menthol is the only reason their kids still have mothers...

being addicted to caffeine sux cos no one cares abt withdrawal... cant work w/ a migraine and heart flutters while shaking and vomiting

every dr is like "just stop drinking caffeine" but like... how? i get flu-like symptoms for weeks. i cant just like go to rehab TT____TT

i wish caffeine addiction was taken seriously. OD'd again last night, but who do i talk to about it? i just get belittled for being addicted

it's so wild when you tell a cis person they're being transphobic and their response is "I'm not transphobic!" and immediately misgender you