i'm feeling depressed as fuck. i talked about my anxiety with [redacted] and it just made me feel worse. like i can't prioritize myself.

i wish i could spend a whole week by myself with no social interactions whatsover. locked in a house by myself. no social obligations....

today was such a [stomach] fulfilling day 🥺 i had a lot of yummy food

today was alright!

when do i stop caring too much for others and start caring for myself first?

i want to cease this restlessness in my heart

found some childhood documents, reports, certificates... it made me think of my potential, and how i might be wasting my time

i don't want to lose another relationship because of my boundaries. i will soon have no one

happy new year. got a hangover. i need to stop treating myself so shitty.

feeling sleepy/exhausted and still awfully sick. i want to get better soon

last few days were alright, but i fell pretty sick. i feel both hopeful and hopeless for next year though :/

went to the movies! super tired and sleepy

i hate everything i do

i just wish i could make people happy

just got this feeling i should isolate cause my presence is unwanted no matter where i am. rightfully unwanted because my behavior is shit!

genuinely spiraling down like shit lately

working on my game for the game jam. only 3 days left. i feel awful. i hate my work. i'm an awful artist and game designer. i suck.

i haven't worked on my game at all yet!!! super anxious!!! i feel like it's gonna suck ass!!! but i'm doing it anyway! pray for me

just woke up! hoping today will be a good day! i have to work on a game for the jam i joined. and maybe my nekoweb

i am like.. unbelievably depressed. i have work to do but the only thing i have done today was eat and rot in bed. i'm gonna try showering