i'm moving out urgently on friday. i'm terrified. i don't want to leave. i'm terrified. everything will be awful. i'm terrified

worst fucking month of my life. i have to move out urgently and i'm so overwhelmed i have to use xanax. so much shit happening at once

kinda wish i had a hub for all my thoughts and projects. i love neocities/nekoweb but i wanted a private space?

hi i am.. alive!

i have a feeling death is always hanging around. watching. i'm so young yet i can't stay a day without obsessing over it. get out.

i had a really interesting dream tonight. with aliens that could communicate through radiowaves.. idk how to explain. it was amazing.

battling depression

been getting really bad psychosis lately. sighs

literally what the fuck.

love making myself peanut butter snacks and telling myself i'm getting protein

so many feelings at work today. feeling tired. kinda frustrated i failed a run in pressure. stupid mistake made me rage quit lol

i'm a bad designer, no idea why i keep calling myself that

not feeling good enough for my job!!! why did they hire me!?! why do they continue telling me they trust my expertise?!? i'm so confused.

yesterday was an awful mental health day. today i'm meh. trying to understand what i want from life. gonna write a bearblog post

i'm feeling so so fucking bad. worthless. meaningless. discouraged. hopeless. exhausted of trying to find meaning in life.

kpop demon hunters is so good. i thought i wouldn't be into it but i genuinely enjoyed it.

trying to reinforce my boundaries and struggling with it. feeling like a bad friend.

absolutely love my job but i'm seriously super tired lol

feeling pretty good today! i just wish my partner was home with me too :/

today was a good day!!!! feeling happy! i love my job! wtf!