i might not trust my loved ones. this is so sad. the way i've been dissociating in the past months might say something about how safe i feel

yknow when you do something you love doing but havent done for a while now. and you remember life is worth living. that's me with webdev rn

unhealthily obsessed w/ "not wasting money" even though i have a decent income. i need to stop turning every purchase into a mental struggle

i feel extreme mental&physical pain when people display disappointment on my lack of social skills/availability! i need to be perfect always

i wish i could spend my entire day webcoding but i have a bunch of social commitments :/ sighs..

still dissociating a lot lately.

i've been feeling... really unhappy. like i'm on autopilot constantly. not caring for myself. i don't remember when i last felt truly alive.

that party i was at did NOT go well lol. i'm doing well though, feeling sleepyy

at a friend's party!

super sleepy & anxious at the same time. praying i can enjoy the weekend properly

oh, hi! i haven't posted in a while. i've been working in that new job i mentioned. i'm still amazed i got such job. things are well.

do you ever get the feeling you will never be a good friend, no matter how hard you try

i'm gonna start the new job next week!!!! super excited/anxious/nervous :s

i.. i got the job guys.. i'm still in disbelief. please come back later when i actually process this information

wait folks i had the last interview & i actually think i'm a good fit for that job..!! MANIFEST IT FOR ME!! let's face new challenges 💪

super anxious... hoping i can have a proper night of sleep.

i had a pretty bad breakdown yesterday 😬 i can see the sun a bit more today. hoping i don't get down like that again.

maybe i should just isolate and never talk to anyone ever again. i'm the fucking worst

people talk about not feeling loved, but i try HARD to express my love to people and it feels like it's in vain. like it hits a brick wall..

feeling like complete SHIT and the voices are not taking it easy!