alexflowers

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Homepage
http://alex.nekoweb.org
About

(25yo, they/he)

hello!!

i'm just another guy who likes to code & has very bad social skills.

i struggle with dissociation. i'm learning how to respect my own boundaries.


here you can stalk me plenty, because i talk a lot about small things i do throughout my day!

please feel free to leave a message on my atabook

thanks for passing by!

✏️ posting since nov/2024

Statuses

alexflowers 💔 78 days ago

making a game for a gamejam and trying to not overthink how this game doesn't seem fun to play at all. trying to not hate myself

alexflowers 💀 82 days ago

haven't been feeling great.

alexflowers ❤️ 87 days ago

sitting in a place at the club where i can feel the vibrations of the music..!!!! so strong /pos

alexflowers 💻 88 days ago

lots of creative tasks at work 😵‍💫 kinda exhausted. i'm gonna have a busy weekend as well. i crave rest

alexflowers 💤 99 days ago

i'm so sleepy :/ but i have so much to do

alexflowers 🎱 102 days ago

i might not trust my loved ones. this is so sad. the way i've been dissociating in the past months might say something about how safe i feel

alexflowers 🥰 105 days ago

yknow when you do something you love doing but havent done for a while now. and you remember life is worth living. that's me with webdev rn

alexflowers 😱 108 days ago

unhealthily obsessed w/ "not wasting money" even though i have a decent income. i need to stop turning every purchase into a mental struggle

alexflowers 😶 108 days ago

i feel extreme mental&physical pain when people display disappointment on my lack of social skills/availability! i need to be perfect always

alexflowers 😭 108 days ago

i wish i could spend my entire day webcoding but i have a bunch of social commitments :/ sighs..

alexflowers 😶 115 days ago

still dissociating a lot lately.

alexflowers 💀 129 days ago

i've been feeling... really unhappy. like i'm on autopilot constantly. not caring for myself. i don't remember when i last felt truly alive.

alexflowers 💤 134 days ago

that party i was at did NOT go well lol. i'm doing well though, feeling sleepyy

alexflowers 😴 157 days ago

super sleepy & anxious at the same time. praying i can enjoy the weekend properly

alexflowers ☀️ 162 days ago

oh, hi! i haven't posted in a while. i've been working in that new job i mentioned. i'm still amazed i got such job. things are well.

alexflowers 💔 188 days ago

do you ever get the feeling you will never be a good friend, no matter how hard you try

alexflowers 😶 189 days ago

i'm gonna start the new job next week!!!! super excited/anxious/nervous :s

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