not feeling good enough for my job!!! why did they hire me!?! why do they continue telling me they trust my expertise?!? i'm so confused.

yesterday was an awful mental health day. today i'm meh. trying to understand what i want from life. gonna write a bearblog post

i'm feeling so so fucking bad. worthless. meaningless. discouraged. hopeless. exhausted of trying to find meaning in life.

kpop demon hunters is so good. i thought i wouldn't be into it but i genuinely enjoyed it.

absolutely love my job but i'm seriously super tired lol

feeling pretty good today! i just wish my partner was home with me too :/

today was a good day!!!! feeling happy! i love my job! wtf!

i think it's kind of sad we have to transform tragedies into consumable media in order for people to pay attention and care about others

i'm exhausted. but i feel like i have no time to rest.

i don't know what i'm doing.. i should be doing something.. this is weird (dissociating)

posted the game i was working on ._. not very proud of the result, but happy i forced myself to post anyway

making a game for a gamejam and trying to not overthink how this game doesn't seem fun to play at all. trying to not hate myself

haven't been feeling great.

sitting in a place at the club where i can feel the vibrations of the music..!!!! so strong /pos

gonna party tonite!

lots of creative tasks at work 😵‍💫 kinda exhausted. i'm gonna have a busy weekend as well. i crave rest

@bird i'm 25!

i'm so sleepy :/ but i have so much to do

i might not trust my loved ones. this is so sad. the way i've been dissociating in the past months might say something about how safe i feel

yknow when you do something you love doing but havent done for a while now. and you remember life is worth living. that's me with webdev rn