i think it's kind of sad we have to transform tragedies into consumable media in order for people to pay attention and care about others

i'm exhausted. but i feel like i have no time to rest.

i don't know what i'm doing.. i should be doing something.. this is weird (dissociating)

posted the game i was working on ._. not very proud of the result, but happy i forced myself to post anyway

making a game for a gamejam and trying to not overthink how this game doesn't seem fun to play at all. trying to not hate myself

haven't been feeling great.

sitting in a place at the club where i can feel the vibrations of the music..!!!! so strong /pos

gonna party tonite!

lots of creative tasks at work 😵‍💫 kinda exhausted. i'm gonna have a busy weekend as well. i crave rest

@bird i'm 25!

i'm so sleepy :/ but i have so much to do

i might not trust my loved ones. this is so sad. the way i've been dissociating in the past months might say something about how safe i feel

yknow when you do something you love doing but havent done for a while now. and you remember life is worth living. that's me with webdev rn

unhealthily obsessed w/ "not wasting money" even though i have a decent income. i need to stop turning every purchase into a mental struggle

i feel extreme mental&physical pain when people display disappointment on my lack of social skills/availability! i need to be perfect always

i wish i could spend my entire day webcoding but i have a bunch of social commitments :/ sighs..

still dissociating a lot lately.

i've been feeling... really unhappy. like i'm on autopilot constantly. not caring for myself. i don't remember when i last felt truly alive.

that party i was at did NOT go well lol. i'm doing well though, feeling sleepyy

at a friend's party!