unhealthily obsessed w/ "not wasting money" even though i have a decent income. i need to stop turning every purchase into a mental struggle

i feel extreme mental&physical pain when people display disappointment on my lack of social skills/availability! i need to be perfect always

i wish i could spend my entire day webcoding but i have a bunch of social commitments :/ sighs..

still dissociating a lot lately.

i've been feeling... really unhappy. like i'm on autopilot constantly. not caring for myself. i don't remember when i last felt truly alive.

that party i was at did NOT go well lol. i'm doing well though, feeling sleepyy

at a friend's party!

super sleepy & anxious at the same time. praying i can enjoy the weekend properly

oh, hi! i haven't posted in a while. i've been working in that new job i mentioned. i'm still amazed i got such job. things are well.

do you ever get the feeling you will never be a good friend, no matter how hard you try

i'm gonna start the new job next week!!!! super excited/anxious/nervous :s

i.. i got the job guys.. i'm still in disbelief. please come back later when i actually process this information

wait folks i had the last interview & i actually think i'm a good fit for that job..!! MANIFEST IT FOR ME!! let's face new challenges 💪

super anxious... hoping i can have a proper night of sleep.

i had a pretty bad breakdown yesterday 😬 i can see the sun a bit more today. hoping i don't get down like that again.

maybe i should just isolate and never talk to anyone ever again. i'm the fucking worst

people talk about not feeling loved, but i try HARD to express my love to people and it feels like it's in vain. like it hits a brick wall..

feeling like complete SHIT and the voices are not taking it easy!

literally every social interaction i've had in the past few weeks made me feel like an awful heartless friend. my pleasantness is negative

finally scheduled some doctors i've been postponing!!!!! yay!