Its been wild but I listened to my best friend to start taking commissions to draw horses & they have become my most popular com type LOL

In other news though I have finally become open about my self-ship online which has been healthy, probably the only healthy thing I did

Maybe I will finally get off my ass and re-familiarize myself with HTML/CSS so I can work towards my site being completed. We will see

I don't really know what to do with myself sometimes, Im still upset I wasted so much time but I cant keep hiding so here I am again

I really got close to ruining my closest friendship again because of it all honestly. Which has begun to hit really hard now w/ meds working

As of last week I finally got ahold of meds again, its not my main stimulant but its something to help until I can get tested again at least

I pretty much stopped posting everywhere, became secretive, ruled by RSD, started lying again, all of my NPD became unbearable to be around

I went off my ADHD meds somewhere like 6 (or more) months ago & ive been slowly getting worse in my control & mental well being since then

So its been a while since I used this site & tbh its been my own fault that its gotten so bad with my online existence

Ngl being back on ADHD meds is reminding me why I cant ever be off them lmaooo

bro wants me to order the mac and caseoh cici's pizza and i think imma do it tomorrow before the winter storms hit us full force

but hey! We getting there now so I cant fuss that badly still. I just gotta do things now, no more slacking off

I could have had this vgen like months ago, or at least raw tried for it. But ive been avoiding any socials & stuff for so long

My manager set up my entire Vgen today & im like over the moon to be able to have it. A beta tester gave me the code & i feel so lucky

im trying to get through making a vision board i should have made at the beginning of the year & it sux to see how little i think i can do

I cant stand the fact I have this and keep not using it to track how im feeling ngl. I currently feel worthless and it sucks a lot

like ive never done that on my own, ive always been with someone else or being mothered. That was so nerve wracking then so freeing

For the first time ever I went out completely on my own to town, took an uber & everything and just. had fun? on my own. Im legit shook

I have also done so much reading over repartenting since yesterday that I think my first step is going to make a list of promises for myself

I have had such weird and painful headaches for the last week and I cant tell if its stress or not :/