neocities mirror now up https://xavierhm.neocities.org/

@zankacore check out bearblog

got the job i interviewed for!! i'm so excited. pay increase alone is huge. maybe i will finally achieve financial stability?

got some japanese takeout...they took one look and gave me a fork and spoon instead of chopsticks lmao

ditched reddit, my last holdout. no more social media. been farming dopamine from esoteric youtube shorts instead. reminds me of when i quit cigs only to fish butts out of the ashtray next to the dumpsters at my old job lol.

went to goodwill and the local headshop...got some clothes and a nice haul of used CDs. wanna make a blog post about it :)

nooo what happened to piclog???

it's my website's first anniversary on nekoweb! i wanted to have a blog post up today but life got in the way...i'll definitely write something before the end of the month tho

bought a $3 stereo at goodwill and finally alphabetized my CD collection. currently grooving to marvin gaye.

shoutout to midwest emo trumpet...gotta be one of my favorite genders 🙏

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz work's got me slumped lately

staying up till 4am doing nothing, holding onto the last vestiges of my weekend w a white-knuckle grip before i go back to work tomorrow

i was too lazy to stop for ramen earlier...and now i'm craving ramen so fuckin bad

over a decade later and born this way still gives me chills...ty mother

big storms tonight!!

feeling better recently; doing a lot of writing and thinking about art!

stayed up till 4am last night playing video games. woke up at noon to feed my cats then fell back asleep until 3pm; didn't get out of bed until 4:30. instead of viewing it as a failure or laziness, i'm trying to reframe it as self-care and relaxation. unlearning self-judgement is hard!

feeling mentally ill

had a shitty mental health day, but i beat VVVVVV on my 3ds which was cool. hoping tomorrow will be a bit better.

back to work (kill me)