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not celebrating halloween in 2025 because this year has been scary enough

60mgs vyvanse gon get me right

i want to be small and i want to be held and i want to turn invisible and i want everyone to forget who i am

@hypoxia there rly is...

it gets so quiet and peaceful when i stop thinking

idk why i always convince myself that i must take the most difficult and stressful route in every situation. i need to not do that anymore

All I care about is money and the city that I’m from imma sip until I feel it imma smoke until it’s done I don’t really give a fuck and my excuse is that I’m young and I’m only gettin older somebody shouldve told you I’m on one fuck it I’m on one I said I’m on one fuck it I’m on one a strong one two white cups n I got that drank could be purple could be pink depending on how u mix that shit money to be got and imma get that shit cuz I’m on one fuck it I’m on one

fckk it im on one

eventually when i can be bothered i need to make my neocities site have a grey and dreary colour palette but still be kawaii at the same time

the fact beige grey brown white and lilac have become my favourite colours recently. does this mean my frontal lobe is developing? is this what it means to become an adult? or am i being subconsciously influenced by fashion trends? bright saturated colours used to be my favourite

that dan and phil video was kind of really important to me it's weird how much they mean to me especially since i am 21 now and very different to how i was at 11/12/13 but they really did have a huge impact on me when i was younger and this whole thing is making me feel kind of emotional, thinking about the passage of time, love and relationships, past friendships, the lives people lead

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cxe_YMJ4nUs phan real. i have literally no one i can talk to about this

i need like the fattest spliff u can imagine

plus i've basically watched every drew monson video that exists at least twice each over this past week.. you tell me what that means

and my friends keep texting me and i havent replied to my friends' text messages for weeks.. have i learnt nothing?

i guess it's good that i'm gradually getting skinnier and i've got a new job and i'm learning loads of new skills and i quit vaping and smoking and that i'm taking my meds every morning.. so idk why it's so hard to give myself credit... i can't wait until i reach a point where i feel like i've achieved enough to allow myself to celebrate my accomplishments and finally stop punishing myself, even just for a bit

https://dollsphinx.tumblr.com/

so proud of london today, free palestine

went through my tumblr archive and privated everything embarassing which didn't take as long as i thought it might, my tumblr turned 10 years old this week and i'm feeling sentimental