eventually when i can be bothered i need to make my neocities site have a grey and dreary colour palette but still be kawaii at the same time

the fact beige grey brown white and lilac have become my favourite colours recently. does this mean my frontal lobe is developing? is this what it means to become an adult? or am i being subconsciously influenced by fashion trends? bright saturated colours used to be my favourite

that dan and phil video was kind of really important to me it's weird how much they mean to me especially since i am 21 now and very different to how i was at 11/12/13 but they really did have a huge impact on me when i was younger and this whole thing is making me feel kind of emotional, thinking about the passage of time, love and relationships, past friendships, the lives people lead

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cxe_YMJ4nUs phan real. i have literally no one i can talk to about this

i need like the fattest spliff u can imagine

plus i've basically watched every drew monson video that exists at least twice each over this past week.. you tell me what that means

and my friends keep texting me and i havent replied to my friends' text messages for weeks.. have i learnt nothing?

i guess it's good that i'm gradually getting skinnier and i've got a new job and i'm learning loads of new skills and i quit vaping and smoking and that i'm taking my meds every morning.. so idk why it's so hard to give myself credit... i can't wait until i reach a point where i feel like i've achieved enough to allow myself to celebrate my accomplishments and finally stop punishing myself, even just for a bit

https://dollsphinx.tumblr.com/

so proud of london today, free palestine

went through my tumblr archive and privated everything embarassing which didn't take as long as i thought it might, my tumblr turned 10 years old this week and i'm feeling sentimental

i have the maddest facebook eyes rn

october please slow down

trying to learn pixel art.. ts harder than it looks

i want cuddles and kiss so bad rn. i miss my bf :(

i love when a grey is slightly purple and also it's the colour of the sky

i've been trying to observe the impact elvanse has on me and it is kinda crazy how night and day it is. like no elvanse day and i am ready to end it all and the sky is grey and my bed is not made until bedtime and i dont know where my time went. vs elvanse days where my bed is made first thing in the morning and i can lock in for hours in a quiet and peaceful way and i dont even have to think about it and all my chores get done. it's kind of magical

everytime i have to write an email without having taken my meds it's like three 9/11s

i was so young when i behaved 25 and now i find i've grown into a tall child

you do not have to be a corn addict to be able to recognise that the uk's web censorship and age verification policies are authoritarian asf