cooking evil space AUs on the brain with my friend yayyy

did the evil calorie math and it looks like it was like a OMAD days worth of eating (roughly 600 calories) not counting Liquid Ones

groans. i binged (though to be fair i think it was from going to sleep hungry after packing until my body was sore and i conked tf out)

big thunderstorm woke me up

deeply amused by the fact that jade correctly assumed id come through with requested cat pics (standing, eating)

packed for like multiple hours and i’m exhausted. made a list of the bits leftover. i did a lot of the heavy duty items today

cold sunny d instead of a beer im counting that as a win

ate a solid kitty breakfast with carbs and vegetables and a dessert so now i’m sipping caffeine and water before my Task

i look so physically unwell people are asking me if i’m ok w genuine concern Uh oh.

having extremely weird derealization moments where the person in the mirror is not me

groans. fell asleep at like 11 and woke up at 3. were up now i guess

taking my iron pills on an empty stomach feels EXACTLY like anxiety. its really messing my body up

cooking up my OMAD and feeling more relaxed and normal with a hot shower a finger detangling of my wavy hair and comfy pjs

the wet rat status buff of a hot shower is so real. choked down some crackers post esophageal spasms. eating strawberry vitamin d bears

gooped up my lips gingerly with burts bees to try to keep me from picking but holy fuuuck lmao what a pain in the ass

ugh. body focused behaviours suck so bad. ive destroyed my lips again and staunching mouthfuls of blood isnt fun

three new plushie pals. mihr my beloved. the gund bear is so nice and easy to hug

crying. i have no braincells when im anxious lmao me when im trying to read course codes

fucking HELL i stayed up to enrol and it turns out its tomorrow at the earliest, possibly monday

newborn esque like sleep schedule … six pm to three am