*me piecing together cute outfits for my bird* ok bro... you have to be magemaxxing your swag

the cripplepunk ethos has served me far better than body positivity or even neutrality. cripple as in fuck you

cripplepunk in the way my disorder nauseates and disgusts people such that they reflexively lean into ableist demands. crazy how it happens

anyways, figured out i can make matcha lattes with my french press. gods gift to this green earth

(me finding myself counting calories) not in milk, bitch. ill kill myself if i have to do the math on milk calories. stfu

contemplating losing weight from actual attempting and not just life threatening illness with an ed past is like suicide baiting yourself fr

brushing my hair out when its wet and fucking flat ironing my waves by doing so makes me look like a wet rat. horror upon horrors

long ass journalling session. needed that one

faintly strange how people can just... become dead to you

NEW SAINT MOTEL MUSIC VIDEO. life is good

"most insufferable person you know goes to graduate school" hearthands

dear christ i'm really living the dark academic aesthetic out aren't i.

melonland forum back online. yippee!!

(violently shaking and trembling) damb maybe i should eat a snack (eats a snack) Wow. Truly Meowgical

forgot how severely coffee dampens my hunger cues. very good move of past me to have choco pretzels on my desk

me forgetting that coffee makes me the sleepiest guy ever <--- falling asleep in my office chair rn after a cup

the caffeine crash from coffee has caught me off guard so BAD. me when im an eepie little guy

moral scrupulosity is the stupidest name ever for it. sounds like a cute whimsical term. meanwhile im battling suicidal ideation heavyy

guiding light: can i look at what i've done and not want to kill myself. yeagh the moral ocd going hard asf rn

weirdly comforting to live by the ideal that i have to be able to live with who i am in the mirror at the end of the day