whatever. going to eat a plain pita because i don’t want the iron to destroy my stomach. can’t even be fucked to add anything to it

sighs. suppose this is my misanthropic bitter little cloistered off freak era. so it goes

it’s like what’s even the point. clearly no one cares. i’m just miserably digging my fingertips in for.. what? hard to recall, exactly

not a single person in my life has reached out to sit down with me for a months long suicidal crisis. that’s actually insane

genuinely sickening to realize that no matter how much i poured myself into my relationships everyone leaves me out to dry. miserable

i’m so dumb. i just realized without my caffeine issue loading up on iron should be much easier now

whatever forever. seaweed and goldfish crackers because i need to eat something to replace the salt of crying

it wouldn’t change anyone’s life. not really. just my older brothers. i think about that more than i’d like to admit

feel like a festering wound of a person. going to finish house keeping and contemplate drafts of drafts of drafts of pointless suicide notes

swinging from active suicidal crisis to active suicidal crisis like a cirque du soleil trapeze artist. in between, passive ideation seeps

can’t stop thinking about the pointlessness of it all and how much better the people in my life would be if i killed myself. lmao

endless laundry and a sink full of dishes. figures i should have a snack while waiting on the laundry. hideously depressed

hour long hot showers in the middle of winter. well, that’s something

going to at least set the dryer on for another cycle while i shower. clean laundry is something at least

can’t bring myself to do the things that bring me joy because there is no pleasure and only obligation. smells like depressive episode, dear

burnout is so evil because what do you mean i’ve been profoundly exhausted for months. bro

turns out i’m not the only one who adds vanilla extract to their coffee. doesn’t seem as usual for tea though

24.27GB of kitten photos on my phone rn

eating and drinking has become an insane chore as of late. what if i simply… didnt (continues eating human kibble slop)

finishing off this oatmeal on the stairs while being too fatigued to even drink caffeine because will to move is zilch. ugh