anyways. house md era i guess

anyway it’s crazy how literally the only people in my life who’ve made efforts with my pronouns have been. cishet normie men. lmao

not going to lie seeing as i can’t medically transition i think about going back into the closet a lot. what’s the point lmao. lol even

anyway there’s a reason i primarily identify as disabled before i ever identify as part of the lgbt + why i was closeted for so long. lmao.

all this corny “we’re in this together” and “love one another” rhetoric from evil ass people behind the scenes is crazy lmao

i’ve literally been jumped for being gay before and i’d still say that that was better treatment than so called allyship’s doled out lmao

like overt bigotry sucks. getting called a faggot and followed sucks. but ostracizing and icing out and destroying my work is so personal

it’s funny because out of all of the cruelty others have inflicted upon me, it’s been allies and community members who have been cruellest

yeah i’m bitter. it’s cruel and abhorrent and displays how viciously people will turn on the marginalized given half a chance

frustrating how it’s the abused who have to live with the repercussions while people who ruined their lives skip on merrily indifferent

been so eepy in bed for like half a hour

had chicken penne pasta and some garlic naan bread for dinner

me predicting my brother would be curious about the word search tool and bookmarking it in advance is so kitty psychic powers of me

refreshing to remind myself of the distance from so called blunt (aka socially incompetent and rude) people as of late i’ve taken

ngl the gender euphoria from this one sweater (heavy weighted dark cotton, boxes out my shoulders and the illusion of flat) is crazy

out of clean laundry so i’m wearing outdoor clothes and it’s hilarious how put together a good fit looks even in casual materials. all black

ngl it still shocks me i cut my caffeine addiction down so severely. like… i did that!

drinking hot milk tea while slumped on the stairs and listening to hot mulligan

good old reliable food fixations. gotta be careful not to lapse into solely eating one food for months on end and giving myself scurvy again

eating an entire ziploc of carrots with ice cold water. love the crunch