bro im so freaking sleepy and idk why. daylight savings kickback is gonna kick my ass

watching a meowvie this evening (the help). yippee. might make a media page for movies ive watched also for my webbedsite...

talked to my big bro. all is right in the world again

only had a handful of hours of sleep but when im not braindead ill make a little fanfic rec/faves shrine on my site. jayvik youre everything

making a concerted effort to get my caffeine in before uh, ten at night

having a direction to orient my compass towards does help. and so does the background productivity of doing laundry…

terribly resigned. i know what i need to do now, said the severely mentally ill 20 something year old

i understand why hamsters gnaw their legs off now. fr

eating cold chef boyardee out of the can

having one of those episodes where i burn down my life to the ground to have a clean slate. very normal behaviour

nvm the depressive episode is NOT over and im going to crawl back into my pathetic little depressive isolation hellhole

terrible experience to realize how little you occupy your own life and how you don't matter at all to everyone sans like. 2 people

the only thing worse than being horrifically depressed is being that AND no one in your life giving a fuck. mortifying ordeal

(hit with an overwhelming wave of grief over my own pathetic misery) oh. okay. we're not unpacking that anytime soon. back to being fauxbusy

sighs. think i might just bury myself back down again in my books. at least language has always been there for me. my one constant companion

chat you know we're cooked when i'm looking up things like 'do you NEED to have friends' and 'is it OK to not have friends' fml. lmao

people. can't live with them, can't live without them. terrible quality of the human condition

well, time to sadboy post on reddit or something

(grimacing) logically i know theyre right. emotionally it feels as if i might as very well not bother given how little impact it has

hesitantly peering out after a reclusive self isolating depressive episode and realizing nothing substantially is different. god above