i NEED some sort of externally imposed structure or my depression eats me alive. academia ruined my brain chemistry for real

bro's latest depressive episode has revealed the grand total of 2 (two) people who would probably find my corpse

(crawling and coughing up blood) i think that the acute phase of my depressive episode has perhaps. passed now

klint painting on a tiny notebook i can never commit to using staring at me serenely on my desk

metallic one coat nailpolishes in jewel tones are the love of my life

have a nasty bruise in the shape of a ring around my finger. ouch

ate a bakery loaf of bread (soft) and some meat for dinner. mouse as fuck meal. redwall goofy guy

it's surprisingly easy to gone girl yourself. disappearing from the margins of peoples lives like a ghost on the midnight lake

the more and more that i withdraw into myself the more profoundly disturbing of an experience it becomes. weirdly freeing though

fucked my throat up by catastrophically messing up taking my pills somehow?! and now swallowing sucks. feels like im suffocating

i have one (1) person in my life who i feel genuinely loved by and cared for. i think this is going to make me a little (lottle) bit crazy

can’t do math due to a learning disability? simply buy two massive pink waterbottle to take all the calculation out of daily intake. winning

bookstore trip soon!! i’ve never been to the local bookstore here. apparently there’s been some new ones in town in the years since

crazy how badly traumatizing a community can be to the extent you reflexively cringe and want to flee at mere unexpected mention of it

we’re out of tea after today. my leg is killing me

spoke to my older brother. everything’s coming up roses

olivia is an adorable villager. i’m going to just play new leaf, hack time, and chill while my hair dries

i know my older brother has salient points but the OCD symptoms really do rear their head up sometimes. what if i- no. bad mental eelness

in a very weird cocoon like state of my life lately

restarted my new leaf file. yippee!