glass animals get me fr. been looping agnes and showpony on miserable loop

too sick and in pain to sleep or write or do anything but stare listlessly as i try to scribble in my journal pointlessly. ugh

i knowww the volatile and violent moodswings are just a result of me being in excruciating pain rn but it blows bro

deeply miserable but at least cheap simulations of human interaction are available for free on video near you now! streams to fill silence

stomach flu

showering DID make me feel marginally better. enough to have the energy to have a meltdown. unsure if a net good was achieved

(thinks about my life for more than two seconds critically and has a catastrophic crashout) has been my life for uh. months now lol

there's precisely one person in my life who gives a fuck about my wellbeing and he's grievously injured so hes been MIA. fml

too tired to do much but i did slap up two celebrations onto the ttrpg lore page. it’s not much but it’s honest work lol

like i mean im grateful obviously such a space existed but its insane how many people are ostracized further when they’re suicidal…

sidebar: kind of crazy how pervasive toxic positivity is. the fact i had to rely on the kindness of strangers on a suicide forum is wild asf

deeply annoying how im profoundly exhausted despite not having really done much of anything as of late. hate being disabled

package anticipation is crazyyy. i love vintage jewellery

ate two little sprinkle donut bites. love vanilla birthday cake as a flavour

chocolate oatmeal the only thing keeping me going fr

chronic pain so bad you contemplate kys. good lord

snapped up a delightful vintage bracelet for under twenty bucks as little bit a treat. hell yeah baby

feeling good about being able to hunt down someone that helped me to thank them. people have such influence in each others lives...

genuinely crazy how much better my self image becomes when i put on a pair of pearl earrings. love the high contrast look with my dark hair!

happy!!! biweekly writers group check ins starting early february with the comeows <3