Self soothing so bad

My brain thinks me planning is an active threat lol

My anxiety right now is through the roof..

It feels so much easier to live..

Being medicated feels so good…

Even with my meds, I still feel paralyzed

I miss myself

I miss playing games..

When I feel productive, motivated, inspired, and energized all at the same time.. that’s how I know I’m about to get my period

The desire to start a business is at its all time peak..

The desire to acquire games from my wishlist is coming back.. despite my never ending backlog..

I’ve been seeing pokopia nonstop on my Twitter feed thank god I’m not obsessed with cute cozy games anymore..

Being noticed by big names and other content creators in the scene gives me so much anxiety.. but I can’t be scared forever

Streamed yesterday ..

I want to change drastically overnight

I miss playing core keeper sometimes..

My biggest fear is not starting a project. It’s not ever finishing it.

Overflowing once again with grand crazy ideas and concepts that will marinade in my head for years to come

Why is it that I feel the most productive and driven a few days before my period and sometimes during it …

From learning AE to wanting to make twitch stream widgets.. to wanting to make small games.. relax girly !!