The expectation to constantly perform is coming from inside the house

Banned a chatter for the first time last night and his comments still making me spiral

Haven’t been taking my meds bc I like to eat

My worst enemy is me

Spiraling is my seasonal hobby

Got my iron pills and I feel like a fresh restart

Took my meds again today after not taking it for months and I feel alive..

Self soothing so bad

My brain thinks me planning is an active threat lol

My anxiety right now is through the roof..

It feels so much easier to live..

Being medicated feels so good…

Even with my meds, I still feel paralyzed

I miss myself

I miss playing games..

When I feel productive, motivated, inspired, and energized all at the same time.. that’s how I know I’m about to get my period

The desire to start a business is at its all time peak..

The desire to acquire games from my wishlist is coming back.. despite my never ending backlog..

I’ve been seeing pokopia nonstop on my Twitter feed thank god I’m not obsessed with cute cozy games anymore..

Being noticed by big names and other content creators in the scene gives me so much anxiety.. but I can’t be scared forever