trying, fam, trying

About to be evicted, white knuckling this thing called life.

End of one year, beginning of another, not prepared for one to end, equally unprepared for a new one to begin.

Just goin' thru the motions for the time being.

Got called "Dan haggerty" (aka Grizzly Adams) and "Jesus" while out and about yesterday. Tonight my ex-gf called and chatted me up.

Gonna try to quit smoking...

Passed my final test at the new job, feeling fucking incredible!

Things seem ok and looking up, in earnest, for the first time in quite a while.

Couple days on the new (old) job, life is lookin' up.

Nothing seems to be going right IRL lately and it's getting old...

who even knows anymore...

High as giraffe lips rn nbd

Adrift at sea, it feels. Need some routine and reason.

Neither of my kids want anything to do with me. Why even...

Waiting on the background check at the probable new job - fingers crossed!

Life is a bit much sometimes, that's all I know.

Tired AF. Almost no sleep last night and first day at the new job today after being unemployed for two months. Ugh.

Super excited and hopeful about the new job prospect!

Feeling pretty disillusioned about not getting a job when "everyone is hiring".

IDK what do do. Rent and bills do, zero support network, everything about to end, considering hopping on a boxcar.