Getting increasingly spooked. Still waiting to get signed up for an EMG;; my insurance is garbage. Entire arm numb :(

Rough news from ortho. He thinks I need carpal tunnel surgery bc I have muscle atrophy. :( Going to get EMG done and go from there.

Been wistfully thinking about a childhood friend. I wonder if they'll reach out one day. They don't have a web presence, neither do I tho ig

Having trouble coming up with a layout for my other one. Have a bunch of stories that'd be nice to post. I'm awful at organizing info tho

Having tons of fun writing stuff. I'm finally putting together OC shrines--I just have the one semi-up

Maybe thicker lineart is in my future, idk. I need to finish building my desk, ironically can't do it with my wrists like this, p uncomfy.

I'm feeling better than weeks ago. Hoping I can figure out a way to not make this worse--I have a feeling how I draw is gonna have to change

Had to reschedule to next week, the orthopedic had to do an emergency surgery so we'll see what the deal is. I'm feeling better than before

Arrived for the funeral. Stuff is really sad and surreal.

Finally seeing orthopedic tomorrow...kinda nervous what they will say. It's really hard functioning like this.

I've been awkwardly writing using speech to text on my phone. It's been rly nice, I'm thinking of maybe posting it later

My uncle passed away a few days ago, it's been really hard on my dad. Us too...memento mori.

That is quite the large undertaking, especially since I am so used to keeping things to myself. It's a little hard to open up.

I've been thinking before I go I really want to create an archive of my strange thoughts online, maybe that's a sort of afterlife in itself

I miss chatting w/ppl online. It was nice. There are a lot of ppl who I miss, but I'm not sure they'd be interested in talking again.

I've been working a ton on voice notes for Val story stuff... I've gotten back into thinking about him. Rly miss him. Been rly fun.

I keep thinking about Henry Darger, how he created this colossal world in secret, just to survive. I completely understand.

I'd like to join more groups online and make friends but I'm scared I'll mess up and ruin things. I wish I was better at this.

Decades without in-person contact changes you man.

Been feeling super unwell and lonely. Right hand very useless, just can't do anything without it flaring. Using voice for phone.