i think i got the spark for art back wow ok

it might all be okay after all!!

feeling fucking evil

i just wish i could forget

being driven nuts with daydreaming thoughts

I feel fantastic. Hey hey hey!!

studying time for amateur stuff

frustrated at being in the same place in life i always have but all i really need to do is, get started. and i'll be okay.

where the fuck did yesterday go

why the fuck am i still awake!!!

insurmountable

once again, missing my old self, feeling small, feeling insignificant... it'll all get better one of these days i just have to get through.

new monologue on my site!! transmitter pics (https://monotheonist.nekoweb.org/monologue/posts/2026-09-21-Transmitter-Photos--CIJK-FM.html)

I feel so small

mono try to lock in and do anything that requires a modicum of focus challenge impossible

i want to draw him... i want to become my old self. i feel safe

failing to be locked in after furry escapades FML

thinking of furries!!

waughhhhhh i had a weird traumatic nightmare why do i have to crave what i hate

i'm almost done this certification i can do it. I can do it I swearsies. I just need to lock in. Please