why the fuck am i still awake!!!

insurmountable

once again, missing my old self, feeling small, feeling insignificant... it'll all get better one of these days i just have to get through.

new monologue on my site!! transmitter pics (https://monotheonist.nekoweb.org/monologue/posts/2026-09-21-Transmitter-Photos--CIJK-FM.html)

I feel so small

mono try to lock in and do anything that requires a modicum of focus challenge impossible

i want to draw him... i want to become my old self. i feel safe

failing to be locked in after furry escapades FML

thinking of furries!!

waughhhhhh i had a weird traumatic nightmare why do i have to crave what i hate

i'm almost done this certification i can do it. I can do it I swearsies. I just need to lock in. Please

Let's Learn How To Serve Alcohol!

always tease your friends (provided they like it.) it's fun!

#MyYaoi

Okay I think i'm back to being normal I just gotta pull up my socks and realize I missed my chance and thats ok. Different stuff can be done

think i need to isolate and replace myself with an unthinking, unfeeling ai clone because i can't keep up the joy

had a doctor's appointment today and she said take more iron. also college fail today

oops accidental anxious nightmare

new blog post, about my journey with radio stuff... Transmitter Pics Soon Ooo

mono stop being distracted challenge impossible