I've gotten so good at starting the day but I let the rest of it wither away... I am on the edge of hubris

who'd have thought that nothing can fill the void

emo music save this mental breakdown make me feel like im in middle school again

what will fill the void? what is the void?

completely fucking wasted my day off because i cant shake bad habits

one day ill be so normal and able to handle things in a sane way and not bring everyone else down with me

if only this wasnt mundane but could be instead... or at least... a beautiful tragedy

projecting my stupid feelings on others when i am in fact just a horrible person and no one else is like this

lady who made my drink asked me how to pronounce my name and said it was very pretty I will cry

I feel ugly NotLikeThis

gentle reminder to me that i can be kind without being nice and that selfishness and thinking before i speak can be helpful in the long run

Need to take cooler pictures.... need people to take cooler pictures of me....

ohhh the vibes are bad but we can learn and have a great rest of the day

I want to know the how's and why's but I'm certain I can't access that information. So luck and confidence should be my state...

hating who i become but how i act is secondary autopilot to the activity so ill never improve

venn diagram of "hates feeling obligated to do things" and "has severe fomo regarding saying no to opportunities" and I'm in the middle

feeling so stupid i cant make myself intelligible

The crushing doubt that I haven't done enough thus losing an opportunity waaaaa

there's something so peaceful about saying "i hope today will be kinder to you"

made tea, my room smells so good now yay!!