toasted asiago cheese bagel with cream cheese my beloved

no motivation to crochet, game, watch youtube, do work... like a ghost i haunt my apartment going through the motions of my routine

getting into the "something is better than nothing" headspace but oh how I want to be nothing

it's happening again (im pretending i dont exist instead of enjoying my free time) and i am losing care in anything

romanticizing my life, falling in love with having street lights and cars and the little shops...

Wish I was one of those mfs that can do work in the airport... I just wanna chill with my snackies

Bartender looks at my mom and her friend, wondering who ordered the Tom Collins (it was me) he goes "that's the drink my mom orders"

new year? on a monday? someone check in on garfield

time moves and i feel stopped like it flows around me, aging me as I stay stuck. wish anything felt significant... is that a loss of hope?

league players (me) trying to do anything serious: ff15 let me out (of my responsibilities)

the overarching weight that makes everything feel like a grind... do i get the grind out of the way or do I pause everything to try to rest?

staring in the mirror and not recognizing the person staring back. realizing the internal self isnt any more recognizable...

forced to deal with reality and those I should care most about and not some fanciful autopilot mundane selfish solipsistic fantasy

spend 10 minutes drafting a text to still feel stuck between misinterpreting and being mean and not asserting one's (good-willed) beliefs

should i eat 20 pizza bagels tonight yes or no

I just wanna be confident and have trust in myself for once in my life (without going overboard to hubris and fucking myself over)

wanted to do my paper, excited to do my paper... now i dont want to bruhhh

Went out to bars with the roomie <3 incredible night

green apple gatorade my beloved

give me one reason i shouldnt get a tamagotchi uni