what do i even care about anymore...

overwhelmed with the grief I ruined someone else's chances and made them waste more effort. I will never be intelligible.

I miss being more involved in my practice... the everyday stuff is nice, I wish I had the time and energy to be more active

try to be confident, try to be smart, try to be reasonable and practical... still be nervy about an email >:(

I can't stand being cringe bro get me outta here

Oh my lower right back hurts more now this is lovely (: perhaps I will pound motrin

roxanne perez kinda going heel after kinda not living up to the prodigy name is hitting different

my friends are so cool and awesome and I love and appreciate them

that slight pain in my lower right back better be some kind of pulled muscle and not my kidney starting something.

am i crying bc I'm the waiter or bc I'm so lost I've resorted to convincing myself I'm him

thanking the lord i know some spanish so i can get through anzaldua with some speed and accuracy

who gave me ego problems

there's so much less to do but it feels so much harder why must I make everything miserable

the subtle nosebleeds where there's suddenly a bit of blood on your hand...

reading Butler makes me want to go work on academic side projects

how is it possible to be so disconnected from everything

this feels like a reverse of how my friends and i would payday but it's girlypop. still unskilled and stupid tho <3

make me a metaphor <3

getting told I look tired when I don't have makeup on and going "haha yeah been staying up late, weekends, yknow" like I'm not just uglyyyyy

northernlion videos save me