projecting my stupid feelings on others when i am in fact just a horrible person and no one else is like this

lady who made my drink asked me how to pronounce my name and said it was very pretty I will cry

I feel ugly NotLikeThis

gentle reminder to me that i can be kind without being nice and that selfishness and thinking before i speak can be helpful in the long run

Need to take cooler pictures.... need people to take cooler pictures of me....

ohhh the vibes are bad but we can learn and have a great rest of the day

I want to know the how's and why's but I'm certain I can't access that information. So luck and confidence should be my state...

hating who i become but how i act is secondary autopilot to the activity so ill never improve

venn diagram of "hates feeling obligated to do things" and "has severe fomo regarding saying no to opportunities" and I'm in the middle

feeling so stupid i cant make myself intelligible

The crushing doubt that I haven't done enough thus losing an opportunity waaaaa

there's something so peaceful about saying "i hope today will be kinder to you"

made tea, my room smells so good now yay!!

someone remind me to ask for a set of custom fangs for my birthday

what do i even care about anymore...

overwhelmed with the grief I ruined someone else's chances and made them waste more effort. I will never be intelligible.

I miss being more involved in my practice... the everyday stuff is nice, I wish I had the time and energy to be more active

try to be confident, try to be smart, try to be reasonable and practical... still be nervy about an email >:(

I can't stand being cringe bro get me outta here

Oh my lower right back hurts more now this is lovely (: perhaps I will pound motrin