"oh god nothing is worth it" I say ominously close to getting my period

uninspired at best, lazy at worst... but i dodge making progress as I head to bed

When ur makeup is pretty but ur not... come on broooooo

vanilla frosting lip balm and lavender lemongrass hand cream helping me drift off to sleep (:

https://artfight.net/~medeuxsa if anyone's interested <3

i dont know if this is giving up or giving in

my mom and I got matching lip balms lip oils when she doesn't normally care about that kinda stuff I'm so happy <:

Why must I fight against myself trying to do better... I want to listen but then I'll never get anywhere...

proud of? nostalgic for? the way my music taste expands and transcends by what I've re-found from the past moreso than what's new...

I miss who I was but I don't know how to pull her from my soul so instead I mourn and yearn

oh thing i agreed to to try to have fun and help out a friend dont bite me in the ass now

im a fiend for sour cream

If everything I've tried so far hasn't been for me it's hard to think about what will be...

how can i be my best self only when a screen separates me from everything...

Why doesn't anyone realize I'm constantly showing them who I am please leave and pursue positive and meaningful things

when I pour more isopropyl alcohol in my dead fly's jar to upkeep preserving it and the little specks float around... snowglobe!!

feeling my youth fade as we move from it girl to it girl and wishing my foundational dreams could have been normal

I want to curl up in my bed and turn to stone.

fuck webs of relationships and connection and fuck time I know they're necessary and I'm sure I like them deep down but they hurt

trying not to cry so hard my mouth hurts. what's up with that