how is it possible to be so disconnected from everything

this feels like a reverse of how my friends and i would payday but it's girlypop. still unskilled and stupid tho <3

make me a metaphor <3

getting told I look tired when I don't have makeup on and going "haha yeah been staying up late, weekends, yknow" like I'm not just uglyyyyy

northernlion videos save me

when u think u drop a banger in the gc but no one responds its so joever

if someone used my neos rn id blow up (i should go to bed)

send one email committing me to various things, my brain immediately, "i must be put down before i have to do them"

save me big rice krispies treat. big rice krispies treat. save me.

trying something and seeing all possible misinterpretations and mistakes and knowing they'll see u as pathetic :(

me when the "I can't feel anything I am going to throw away anything extra because it's all too overwhelming and scary" hits

toasted asiago cheese bagel with cream cheese my beloved

no motivation to crochet, game, watch youtube, do work... like a ghost i haunt my apartment going through the motions of my routine

getting into the "something is better than nothing" headspace but oh how I want to be nothing

it's happening again (im pretending i dont exist instead of enjoying my free time) and i am losing care in anything

romanticizing my life, falling in love with having street lights and cars and the little shops...

Wish I was one of those mfs that can do work in the airport... I just wanna chill with my snackies

Bartender looks at my mom and her friend, wondering who ordered the Tom Collins (it was me) he goes "that's the drink my mom orders"

new year? on a monday? someone check in on garfield

time moves and i feel stopped like it flows around me, aging me as I stay stuck. wish anything felt significant... is that a loss of hope?