scrolling through bands' discographies seeing that they made new music, missing being a fan of things...

giving myself the ick by being a monster then letting that melt into vulnerability (both parts are making me cringe)

i cant stand routine bro, especially when it bring monotony and averageness

how can it be possible to be this scared + wasted all day over nothing combo is crazy

Haunted by the thought of doing this alone...

In a dumbass attempt to be nice I think I have committed a complete social blunder

Getting nostalgic thinking about titanfall...

how can there be so much shame for a body i feel so disconnected from

Can I, by sheer willpower, overcome the yearning for a bad habit?

"oh god nothing is worth it" I say ominously close to getting my period

uninspired at best, lazy at worst... but i dodge making progress as I head to bed

When ur makeup is pretty but ur not... come on broooooo

vanilla frosting lip balm and lavender lemongrass hand cream helping me drift off to sleep (:

https://artfight.net/~medeuxsa if anyone's interested <3

i dont know if this is giving up or giving in

my mom and I got matching lip balms lip oils when she doesn't normally care about that kinda stuff I'm so happy <:

Why must I fight against myself trying to do better... I want to listen but then I'll never get anywhere...

proud of? nostalgic for? the way my music taste expands and transcends by what I've re-found from the past moreso than what's new...

I miss who I was but I don't know how to pull her from my soul so instead I mourn and yearn

oh thing i agreed to to try to have fun and help out a friend dont bite me in the ass now