finally ported my friend group's old discord bot to matrix! I'd been procrastinating on it for faaar too long, it's good to finally be doing it!

aughhh travel day aheaddd,, at least I'm much better rested today haha

one of my fave kink writers recently wrote a story?? where the main character is an AMAB enby on estrogen?? and like,, it made me feel so,,, weirdly seen. haha.

god damn, how come UK folks can enter the EU for free, but if I want to enter the UK, they gotta stiff me out of 20 euros to apply for a visa?? cringe island

still can't get over the Steam Frame delay, it's so unfairrr I want the fancy new toy alreadyyy

thinking of (at least temporarily) switching my "bird status" widget to use imood,,

going outside with my pet collar under my scarf because im a strong independent critter

bro nawhhh, how tf am I getting hung-up on how much cooler someone else's vocal stim is compared to mine

it shouldn't be THIS easy to forget just how much better everything works when you're not in massive sleep debt,,

oh man Pawska was such a great con, so many cool room parties and cuddles and great chats and aaaaa

haha the tag search on bandcamp go brr,, (furry emo and punk music gahhh!!! <33)

getting things done!!! waow!!!!

busines idea: open sauce,, its a sauce, but you can download and modify the recipe,,, oh yeah thisll make a million dollars,, a million dollars john,, [starts grimestep beatboxing]

dear diary, gender: apathetic [music starts playing]

guhhh im sick

y'know, the difference between "I don't want to do x" and "my brain is literally rejecting x" is pretty noticeable when you're not automatically trying to gaslight yourself into thinking it's all just you being lazy and not actually trying

ughh the ADHD therapy is working too well,, enjoying my hobbies enough to hyperfocus again is great!! until I find yourself realizing I'd lost track of time at 3am. for the n-th day in a row. and also I haven't touched my todo planner and now have 50 million unread messages. oh god help

at work. straight up killin it. and by it, I mean. haha. lets just say,, the chances of my contract being extended...

fuck my stupid baka muppet life (affectionate)

fuck me, it's?? such an odd doublethink. being in awe at how welcoming and open creative spaces are and how people are just making stuff for fun and publishing it regardless of skill level and other people are enjoying it, blemishes and all,,, yet simultaneously not feeling "good enough" to do so myself and focusing on how much "worse than" I am instead of actually doing stuff. eugh.