bro nawhhh, how tf am I getting hung-up on how much cooler someone else's vocal stim is compared to mine

it shouldn't be THIS easy to forget just how much better everything works when you're not in massive sleep debt,,

oh man Pawska was such a great con, so many cool room parties and cuddles and great chats and aaaaa

haha the tag search on bandcamp go brr,, (furry emo and punk music gahhh!!! <33)

getting things done!!! waow!!!!

busines idea: open sauce,, its a sauce, but you can download and modify the recipe,,, oh yeah thisll make a million dollars,, a million dollars john,, [starts grimestep beatboxing]

dear diary, gender: apathetic [music starts playing]

guhhh im sick

y'know, the difference between "I don't want to do x" and "my brain is literally rejecting x" is pretty noticeable when you're not automatically trying to gaslight yourself into thinking it's all just you being lazy and not actually trying

ughh the ADHD therapy is working too well,, enjoying my hobbies enough to hyperfocus again is great!! until I find yourself realizing I'd lost track of time at 3am. for the n-th day in a row. and also I haven't touched my todo planner and now have 50 million unread messages. oh god help

at work. straight up killin it. and by it, I mean. haha. lets just say,, the chances of my contract being extended...

fuck my stupid baka muppet life (affectionate)

fuck me, it's?? such an odd doublethink. being in awe at how welcoming and open creative spaces are and how people are just making stuff for fun and publishing it regardless of skill level and other people are enjoying it, blemishes and all,,, yet simultaneously not feeling "good enough" to do so myself and focusing on how much "worse than" I am instead of actually doing stuff. eugh.

aaaaa time to play deltarune x3

which one of you bastards put a worm in my About field's HTML and why did you have to completely fuck up the code formatting while you were doing it, it's seriously such a bitch to fix ittt

whisking myself away to my happy place (furry animations & MAPs playlist)

ughhh,, i forgot how anxious even just being in a public space with randoms can make me,,, it's good to be reminded of it, I guess, but jesus does it suck. (but it's good that I tried, at least!)

swimming is simultaneously exercise and meditation :3

bearblog fucks so hard, it absolutely bodies all the other personal blog hosts out there... (...not that that's a super high bar, nowadays. where did all the blogspot-type sites go?? ouch.)

been thinking of trying blogging again??