anyone else would have made it up to me but no right back to ur video games. no thanks

he made no plans for our 1yr, wrote 1/10 of what i would have written, doesnt talk to me and plays his game again. why do i say i have a bf

i wanna apply to the waitress job thats posted but i worry ill be shit at it if i need to prepare dishes or if i mishear the customer...

AGHHH i hate my mood swings so much i wish i could have a stable mood or feeling for at least 1 hour

dizzy from the blood draws...also i honestly dont love him anymore cant bring myself to fake it lol

also school tmrw i am stressed out of my mind i hate being there

idk i hate myself for ruining things its not going to be fixed ever

why cant guys just leave me alone i wish i only had close girl friends who like spending time with me

i feel bad for feeling this way but im tired of people monitoring me and asking what im doing all the time or always bringing it up.

im so tired mentally i cant form proper sentences and i cant think at all.

exercising a lot of self control to break contact and also to not eat at night after dinner

i miss my best friend

ppl always used to say he was perfect for me and now everyone says hes just a jerk. but they dont know what i did too

i hope someday someone will love me again, even when they know what im like, and they understand me fully...its impossible i think

why do none of my advisors at uni answer ANY emails? its so frustrating like im just tryna graduate man

i was horrible ik but i wanted to be better....but he no longer lets me be

i miss my (prob ex)bf but hes so mean. i just want to rewind but he's never gonna be nice to me or leave his video games for me again

put on antidepressants too after all. was too embarrassed to say i had more extreme issues but id rather start slow.

referred to physical therapy, derm, and regular therapy

anyways doctors appt tmrw i guess and semester starts on monday i rly hate life