i want people to fucking ruin me, i want somebody, ANYBODY. EVEN A FRIEND. to absolutely ruin my mental health i just cant wait im desperate

I SUDDENLY HATE THE THOUGHT OF BEING ALIVE oh my god this is miserable

spiraling STILL i can never catch a damn break

coming home to a lovey dovey cat after a long day is so rewarding 🙁❤️❤️

friends>>>>>>>>>>

dont talk about me, dont talk about me positively or negatively, I dont need people knowing i exist in any way, shape, or form.

Me acting casual after i just get talked to after they were talking to someone else so i lowkey just dont respond

even the littlest things get me paranoid or pissed off now

maybe im overreacting

im going to snap at somebody oh my god im going to RUUIIINN. somebodys FUCKING LIFE

im slowly giving up

sometimes i realize why im aroace 🫤

im gonna fucking kms

highkey just gonna strangle them and then myself after (targeted) i hate being paranoid!!!!

jealousy sucks ass 🫤

ITS MY BIRTHDAYYYY (finally)

🙁

MERRY CHRISTMAS IM STILL SICK 🎄🎄🎄

very sick

im losing sight in my leg oh my GAAAHHHDHDD….