It has to want to be saved in order to be saved.
yizzle
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Game developer, artist, and computer science student. On a medical leave and hiatus since Feb 2026.
Welcome to my public notes app featuring thoughts on my chronic illness and the yearning for creative fulfillment
Page is dark and yellow tinted due to migraines.
Background art: Elysium by Awetos
Guts from Berserk walking into the light, in reference to Maximus' death in Gladiator as he imagines passing through Elysium and reuniting with his wife and child.
Statuses
Everytime I try to save money I end up losing more. No you cannot SAVE money. Money is meant to be used. It cannot be saved.
2 more weeks until the lab until 1 month for the revisit until the next lab until the next visit until braces until surgery.
When you say God, I want to learn internal validation, and he said "bet" and takes everything away from you so you have to learn to be happy
Nope I will not check the results. All validation comes from internal.
I am very humble. In fact, I think I'm the humblest person there is. I think I' better at being humble than everyone. Im winning at this.
Everytime God pisses me off, he sends me a blessing afterwards. I'm starting to think he likes this little bastard
The more healed you are the less you care for attention
God packages hate in the strangest boxes. (My hatred of something pushed me past my fears)
No, I am most definitely the humblest of them all. I definitely beat everyone at being humble.
Nooooo.... why did she delete everything...
I actually have developed an aversion to gluten. Not an allergy or sensitivity. I actually fucking hate it. Ive never been more productive
Emotions are your report cards for how youre doing in life.
The most accomplished people are the most fragile while the dumbest people have been set free from the chains of external validation
Beauty and aesthetics is important. It brings order and pleasure. It shows that someone cared.
When you realized the programmers you met as a kid were just assholes and most programmers are nice and want to help you.
considering all the tools for art, sites, and life that making games bring to artists, I think programmers love artists.
turns out suffering is a crash course in self actualization, while ease is a road to nowhere
really amusing to see someone live my dream life, and struggle with my goal, while i lived a shit life, and thrive in the same goal
#1 rule: "Women want what other women have." If you're a woman, don't get caught up in FOMO.If you're a man, don't make her feel singled out