I have such a headache. Missing the first 2 days of class. I feel like such a bad student
yizzle
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Game developer, artist, and computer science student. On a medical leave and hiatus since Feb 2026.
Welcome to my public notes app featuring thoughts on my chronic illness and the yearning for creative fulfillment
Page is dark and yellow tinted due to migraines.
Background art: Elysium by Awetos
Guts from Berserk walking into the light, in reference to Maximus' death in Gladiator as he imagines passing through Elysium and reuniting with his wife and child.
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When you were little and you imagined a little man inside the TV, it turns out that little man is real.Its how your brain perceives reality.
When you understand social media is Plato's Allegory of the Cave...
Real gamedev is watching a YouTube video on how steam engines work because I refuse to use AI to generate even concept art of my machine
The Chicken Littles saying "software engineering is over" is gatekeeping how vital and important this job is.
The secret it turns out is not to get to the end, but to find a journey worth going on.
My game will be free forever and no subscriptions and have offline version so you keep it. I do it for the love of the game.
When you realize how long it takes to make a single asset or a mechanic you weep for bad games because it shows contempt for the craft
Yes I am afraid of criticism. My only option is to make my game the best I can that any criticism it has is a genuine blind spot
Why must request and reply both start with r
Judgmental people have either the most easiest and sheltered lives, or the most chaotic and miserable ones. No in-between.
I do not use AI. I simply use auto complete because I am too dumb of a programmer to integrate Claude.
Perfection is admired but the flawed are loved.
I asked for greatness. I got trauma. I asked for wisdom. I got trauma twice. I asked for character. All adversity!
Ur telling me this super complex "Genshin detected you cheated" math is just one freaking function that everyone uses?!
Of course. Why wouldn't the 4chan crypto bro not be fascinated by anticheat cryptography.
To love is the understand and to hate is to not understand. If you love gamedev, you will seek to understand code.
When you die you go to your last save point. Your last save was the last time you were happy.
I love to suck at programming.
when you get good, you become fast. but if you prioritize fast, you become bad.