So hard to just get out of my own head and enjoy myself without Notions coming in. Need to be blasted with stimulation 24/7

Felt too uneasy to focus on much. Switching between parts it feels like

better-ish now. post-fight clarity ig, but at least i have a plan

better but kinda fragile. part is relieved i'm aware of it, and others are beginning to show themselves

I JUST WANNA DIE

I need attention from men now or I'll die

Like fr if I blew my brains out that'd be a two-year setback for the polycule max

Doing math

I am loved but am I liked? Am I worth liking? I think more people would like me if that were true

This world would be better without me in it

Hollow

*being aromantic lol hit the character limit

Ohhhhhhh so it could've been that easy the whole time!!! Fuck!!! I didn't need to hide my creative projects or think I was broken for being

Someone somewhere probably believes i deserve to be treated well and feel safe I hope

Sad asf but if I keep doing things then I don't have to think about it

Self fully eroded lol Wrote a banger line about it though, "an inner death is always one of strangulation"

I can feel my personhood eroding

I need everyone to see

Is it soulmates if we have to contort ourselves to fit the mold?

She doesn't need me but I need her