i truly am the least stable person to ever live. from righteously angry to upset and missing it all within 30 minutes

Break going well, I miss my wife tails but I feel loads better at the same time. Like a kind of freedom

The way I immediately felt better going on a break jesus...we could even get couple's counseling I'm heartbroken but happy

So hard to just get out of my own head and enjoy myself without Notions coming in. Need to be blasted with stimulation 24/7

Felt too uneasy to focus on much. Switching between parts it feels like

better-ish now. post-fight clarity ig, but at least i have a plan

better but kinda fragile. part is relieved i'm aware of it, and others are beginning to show themselves

I JUST WANNA DIE

I need attention from men now or I'll die

Like fr if I blew my brains out that'd be a two-year setback for the polycule max

Doing math

I am loved but am I liked? Am I worth liking? I think more people would like me if that were true

This world would be better without me in it

Hollow

*being aromantic lol hit the character limit

Ohhhhhhh so it could've been that easy the whole time!!! Fuck!!! I didn't need to hide my creative projects or think I was broken for being

Someone somewhere probably believes i deserve to be treated well and feel safe I hope

Sad asf but if I keep doing things then I don't have to think about it

Self fully eroded lol Wrote a banger line about it though, "an inner death is always one of strangulation"

I can feel my personhood eroding