i cleaned a lot today. also, i've decided i only get to worry about things for 1 hour a day max, the rest of the day is for doing or resting

i think my art is getting better

me when i spend hours upon hours deep diving into cleaning products only to find out regular ol' diluted bleach is the best

i love antonio wife

i had spaghetti

shut the freak up!!!

get phone call -> pissed off because i'm sick of phone calls -> it's the most soft-voiced robot reminding me of my appointment

i want a tattoo would it be insane to get a worm wrapped around a violin

stressed out again, need to calm down so i can work on art but it's hard to reach comfort right now

sick of seeing untagged posts about irl murders and deaths. some people can't handle that shit it's not hard to add "cw death" or whatever

i bought and played the funny little gator game because it was on sale. i think i finished almost the entire game it's very cute and fun

i wanna go outside so bad

going to try having a far less stressful day.

correction to previous status: how stressful yesterday was* now i'm watching ice soup asmr.

i rage quit a game (likely because of how stressful today is) and then i watched wood soup asmr.

everything is so confusing and overwhelming. how am i supposed to find a good surgeon by myself? i burned myself out today lmao

i should eat toast

actually, another way of coping if i lose my voice could be learning to play an instrument so well i can use it as a second voice

scared of losing my voice from the surgery. my literal only way of coping with that would be thinking about my oc who has a destroyed voice

utterly terrified of every endocrinologist in my town so now i go into the blanket cave until i'm fine again